anyone???

 Ok soo since the holidays i been sinking... more n more by the day... at first i thought it was just the holidays but now im thinkin im psyc'n myself out... i have been so focused an so on top of this whole surgrey/life style change since july... but now that its getting closer im starting to lose my focus an begining to have all kinds of doubts.. all i wanna do is sleep but even that just makes the days go slower.. yet faster at times i dont know.. i feel like im losing my mind... last pre-op class on jan 5th... an meeting surgeons... what a time to lose faith in myself... wtf am i thinking..! now is when i need to be more confident then i have ever been in my entire life! im gona screw up all the hard work i have done over the past 6months i can tell...

This really does sound like you're in a depression and you really should see your family doctor and let him know how you've been feeling lately! When I was deciding about the surgery for myself, I researched all of the risks and possible complications of surgery, and all of the same for me in the state that I am right now....... and the surgery wins by far! I no longer have a doubt in my mind that this is what I need to do. Have you tried doing something like that? It might help.

Hey, I was just sitting here thinking back to the day's before my surgery which will be 5 Years on Jan 23 rd. I know exactly how you are feeling like the weight of your world rest on you and how you do with this Big choice you half too make, Either try Your Best to fix the mess you have gotten yourself into or Don't ! Who says you half too, No one you can keep right on living your life the way you always have and Then What ?    You finish the rest of it . I am Not saying all of this too be hateful But you have a long difficult road ahead if you are always thinking your going to fail !because the surgery is the easy part, The whole emotional rollercoaster is what is the hardest and if you are already in a Bad mind state it will be that much More difficult. I am not saying you can't do it because You can, I am telling you all of this from experience I too was in a very Bad mind set, and I pray you can pull yourself out of this and start thinking positive and Believe you will be able too do it and be successful, Because you can ! ! ! ! !   You will be so thankful in 6 mo, or 1yr or even 5 yrs from now and you have made it. Time will still pass whether or not you have the surgery it all depends on what boat you want too be floating in over the next years, and if you want to be your true self because this weight is Not who you are and don't let this one moment in time dictate the rest of your life, I will be praying for you and I hope you will believe in yourself enough too try! Let me know how everything goes .

Peggy,

Okay, this is the professional me talking here:  I understand your "blues", and agree with others that you may want to talk to your doc about getting on an SSRI (Lexapro, celexa, zoloft, etc) to take the edge of your anxiety. Try to reframe  your nervousness into excitement!  Really, the butterflies, the racing heart, all the same feelings as excitement and anticipation.  It's normal to have doubts, and to have cold feet. Have faith in the surgeons who have faith in your abilities.  If you continue to second guess yourself, and the hard work you've put into it, you will be only setting yourself up for failure. Stope the negative self talk.... Look for, find them (they are there) the strenghts you have. For God Sake...YOU ARE WOMAN...RRROOOAAARRRR!!!   You can do this!

Now, on a personal note, I too had a bit of second thoughts yesterday as I described the procedure to my dad.  But then he and my mom (she is morbidly obese) turned their concern into excitment for me.  And Peggy, this morning, at 8:30 a.m., my father died in his sleep. A bit overweight, diabetic, history of heart attacks. My hero, is now gone. But I am holding onto his excitiement, and not worrying about the "What If's"   If you have any family, friends, who truly care about you, and whom you truly care about, then you owe it to yourself to be there for them.  Remember...RRROOOAAARRR.

You will do it. I will do it.   We will all be healthier and happier. For ourselves.

Peggy, I hope you are feeling better about things now. You have done such a great job over the last 6 months. Stay focused girlfriend. Say a prayer. Hopefully you will get your date tomorrow since it is your last pre op class. I see the surgeon on the 6th for my pre op visit. I am working on my 30 day pre op diet. I started it on the 31st of Dec.
Keep your head up,
Emily

Thanks Emily,
 im doing much better now think i was just a bit overwhelmed...  im hoping i will get my date tomorrow..  at least knowing will give me something  u know... not knowing drives me insane..
im beyond ready... ive done everything i was told an im more then prepared... just waitingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.....  hugs  thanks for the kind words..

Peg