lower self~esteem??

ok so ive lost 50+lbs since july just on pre-op diet  program alone.. gettin ready for surgery.. none of my clothes are fitting properly... my skin is already getting saggy... even my face is starting to look like ive melted... has anyone else experienced this? i mean ok i knew like a year from now i would have excess skin an so on.. but well im going in to hibernation mode.. when i dont want to be seen and just want to sleep.. you'd think that losin weight would make me feel better about myself but its makin it worse.. i mean i know losing weight doesnt change ur mental state.. but well u all more then likely know what i mean... an it being holiday season isnt helping :(

50lbs is an awesome start!! I'm sorry you're feeling so badly though!! Maybe it's just something that you're seeing? Do you have comparison pics up?

Maybe it's depression.  It can strike without you knowing the exact reason.  Maybe talking to someone would help.

 i think its just me... cuz i been putting up pics an every one who sees them think im doing great an every one i chat with think i loook amazsing but i just feel like im melting.. u know how.. umm ppl say the pounds just melted off... well thats exactly how i feel i loook like im melting.. im all droopy allover.. an    just feel truly disgusted with myself... stupid i guess.. i dont know.. maybe its just a phase..

Big Congrats on the weight loss, that is excellent.

I have not started my dieting or nothing as of yet, besides cutting junk food and pop right outta there. I think your more so being Self consciousness, which we more so know that alone can effect or self esteem! As far as excess skin goes, the only thing that you could attempt to do is tone while its comming off, other then that its not garentteed nore will it take it all away. However it will help with self esteem and make you feel good. I know at this moment i feel blah!

 thank you so much... yeh i gave it all up months ago.. an it really works an water water water.. sincerly.. im on 2 protien shakes a day an a sensible meal an snack since july an the lbs just have been coming off.. but its discouraging when to me i look worse then b4.. i think its just my perception tho.. cuz everyone that sees me thinks i look great.. an compliments on how well im doing so far... even those who didnt know i was making a major life style change.. an the ones that do know so dont get it.... they calll it a (diet) as if.. askin whats so different bout this "diet" im like its permanent.! even have some nasty comments bout bets of how long i can stay on this... i have uber amounts of determanation that has stored up inside of me just for this....i just had a really bad day the other day.. an thought maybe someone else might be going through the same thing... an wanted to share... i been tryin to work out but my size an co-morbidies dont help in that matter..  so im doing whatever i can for the moment.. which isnt much but its more then nothing.... thanks for letting me vent... u guys are great..! WLS here we come! next stop amusement parks and Rollercoaster rides! (minus the belly full of park food ) still gona be one amazing ride! i hope im well on my way to recovery by summers end!! 

Peg

as far as working out I totally understand. I am in the same boat as you are... I weight 462 pounds....

Vent vent vent...... we are here to listen....VENT (",)

Sorry.... hijaking the thread here for a minute..... you weight 462?? Wow! You don't look it at all!
btw - Your avatar pic is gorgeous!!

Trust me hunny I get the " you don't look it" all the time..... In fact I do and it hurts sometimes....

I don't think any of us see us as we truely are. I know I go through different spots where I don't feel anywhere near as big as I am, and other times when I feel twice as big. When I'm losing weight, other people always notice it way before I do. Imperfections though..... I notice when they're miniscule and no one else would ever notice! I have places on my scalp where there is no hair (on the top and both sides from a med that I was on) and I always think that it is SOOOO noticable! No one ever notices unless I say something about it. Maybe that's what is happening with you? With losing 50lbs, your face would change shape....... maybe that's all it is. I would talk to your doctor about depression though. And like you've already been told in this thread...... vent away girlie!! We're here for you :)