120 thank you!

I think you're doing wonderful! The mind thing is hard for me too. It has really helped me to lay one of new, smaller pair of pants on top of my older, larger pants. I can visually see the difference. Have you tried that? Today I put on a pair of my old pants. The entire new me fit into one leg! The most surprising thing I've learned in the last year is that I LIKE to exercise. I would never have guessed that. I enjoy pushing my body to the limit and then taking it just one step further.

Thank you so much Antonietta, Gosh

Well it has been a year yesterday. . I am official down. 105 lbs. I was hoping to be below 200 at my surgiversary But I will take it. Only four pds away!!! It has been an interesting experience. I have learned alot and am still learning. I know when they tell you that this is a tool. Not a solution that I said yeah I know, but I dont think I really realized that until the last few months. I have to be careful about what I eat. Some things make me nauseas, some make me consipated, and some just go down right fine. Some days some things go down and other days they wont. I also have discovered you can not live on PROTEIN alone. Just dont work, my sugar drops to low. The mind thing is the most difficult for me right now. I know I am in a sixteen but I cannot see it. They call it Body dysmorphia. Well I wish my mind will catch up. I have learned that I have bones. Yeah, all that cushion is disappearing them bones tend to stick out. I can feel my leg bone from the check of my butt to my knee, that is strange to me. And I can feel my collar bone. And I have knees and ankles. I have also learned that people are treating me different. More people smile and are willing to help. And guys seem to be popping up all over, opening doors, making comments to me and my husband. Yeah and he dont like it. We went through a jeolous thing for awhile but I beleive he is getting over that. Took some couceling on how to deal with him. It helped. And I have learned that I have to make good choices or pay the consequences. The mental thing has been the hardest I want to eat but cant and know I cant. Has the mental thing been hard for you. I have learned that I have to find things to do to keep my mind off of food. I have lived a sedentry life for about 10 yrs. So I have to find things to do. I have my back fixed and my weight is coming off. I have an appointment with DORS to see about going back to work somewhere next week, wish me luck!!! This site has been my godsend though I dont think I could have done as well without it. And some days I am tired and dont want to play this game anymore, but I wouldnt change it for the world. I feel better, mentally and physical, and I hope and prayer it helps my back last longer. What have you learned about yourself in the last year?Hugs

Thank you Elisia. You are a big help in keeping me motiviated. lov marie