OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! WE are the SAME! I haven't lost for about 6 months either and my lowest weight was 126...now I am 134...I go between 130-140. I have a big 10 fluctuation. It is what it is. I've lost 103 pounds. Read my reply to Elisa. I need a serious butt kicking too.

I am afraid to reply after reading this thread. But here it goes...I'll do yesterday first. B-waffles with real butter and syrup L-cheese and crackers and more crackers and more -cheese its white cheese. D-made a sandwhich to eat at work with a granola bar (so I wouldn't binge eat when I get home at 10 pm-that's what I usually do) then a student brought me a bag of flaming hot cheetoes. Ate the whole bag, the sandwhich, the bar, came home and had 3 rice crispy treats and cereal..with more granola bar. Today so far I had coffee with hot chocolate and a Jack in the Box trio sampler....I am seriously thinking the restrictive aspect of my RNY is not there. I know that I'll gain everything back if I don't change. It's weird because all those first months after surgery, soft foods, the liquid diet, I followed TO THE LETTER. Why can't I control myself now?

Thanks you.. hugs

We only had 21 participants this month. We're 15 months post-op. We've lost about 134 pounds PER PERSON! We've lost 90% of our excess weight!! Awesome! xosm

My goodness, I am eating so much more and worse than all of you. I am really, really lucky that I have not gained, but I certainly will if I don't stop. I eat candy and sweets, I graze on chips and cheeze-its. I don't eat HALF of anything, I can eat a whole sandwich, etc. I'm super swollen post-op. I even gained an inch on my thighs since the day before surgery - so luckily [again] it is swelling. But my body is still THICK, just less skin. I mean, I think I still look like a plus size girl, just without the panni and boobs. I'm grateful to have that gone, but I'm sad that I don't FEEL thinner. Anyway since the surgery was pretty brutal, I don't want to ruin it by any kind of GAIN. I plan to make every effort to be THIN. Food. Yeah, I know what the right things to do are, same as always, right? LOL. Eat less bad carbs, more lean protein and fiber. I DO still use my protein shakes for supplements, they work for me, and right now I need the extra for healing. This week I am going to carefully review the post that Marie linked to from my very successful 'old timer' friend. I feel like I know the right things to do about food though, I just have to set my mind to DO IT. EXERCISE is a big missing component for me right now. Before surgery I was counting my steps at work and thinking it was "enough" but it WASN'T. Now, [I love you Terri, this is NOT a shot], I don't think I will ever have the #1 body builder, struggling not to lose more weight lifestyle that Terri has, I envy her because it seems like the exercise has definitely filled up the blank spot in her life that food left, but I don't think I personally will ever have the time or the gumption to be that kind of person. I do hope to be the kind of person who is active and likes to be. I do want to be the kind of person who DOES exercise REGULARLY because it's healthy and all that. I DO like the way I felt when I was doing the treadmill regularly, I'm not really sure WHY I stopped, then, KWIM? I want to find a way to stick to it, SOMETHING, and just have it be a regular part of my life like eating well should be. I look forward to feeling better [I'm only a little over a week post op right now and tired like a dead horse] to actually DO stuff. I want to stop talking about doing it and DO IT. Terri, do you have advice on how you got to the point where you started to love what you do [exercise wise?]. I really hope I can find that with a less floppy body, I might want to exercise above and beyond just for practical reasons. I don't know if I am making sense, but right now I think this will be part of the key to get me the figure I want and keep it. The other thing for me is just to keep up with regular therapy. I'm learning so much about why I eat, and do other destructive things. I am learning so much about myself, I just hope I can figure out more stuff before I make too many mistakes. Well, Elisa, I hijacked your thread, I'm sorry! My answer to you about eating is sort of simple, I think you do KNOW what the RIGHT things to do are. None of us are perfect all of the time, but it sounds to me like you are doing OK. I guess I think you just have to figure out what it is that's making you think there is something WRONG with you or what leads to making wrong choices. For me I see boredom as a big reason for my grazing. I also see my fear and anxiety, and reaching for bad choice food is just what I've always done, even a year of working on good habits hasn't made much of a change in that - it's still often almost automatic. The difference is now I am at least aware of doing it, and I know some things that work well for me to stop doing it. I am joining a group challenge on another site that gives me points for doing the right things - it gives me a daily way to be accountable and also to think about my choices in regards to not letting my team down. I dunno, as long as we keep trying, I think we are ahead of the game. And, really, I think you're doing great Elisa.