Who me... I cant imagine

I know I am only a month out but my aunt is down to a 10/12 she is about two years out. Well she called me to come help her clean out her closet today. She keep giving me these clothes that are 10/12 and 14/16. I keep telling here aunt judy that I cant where thiese clothes and that I will never be that small. She says I will. I cant imagine. I have been over 200 since fourth grade and cant imagine that I will ever be smaller then a 20. Am I in denial or what? I just cant see it. Just needed someone to talk to that I thought might understand she just laughs at me. But I really cant imagine. love marie

I hear ya! I was over at my mom's house last week, and was teasing her that soon I would be shopping in the closet of mom. ( I have been a size or two bigger than her for years, and she keeps her smaller sizes in hopes that one day she actually will fit into the outfit she wore to see xyz band when she was just out of high school) I've lost 30 lbs in the first month, and now she's saying that I'll be smaller than her by the end of next month, so I should be looking at the 18's and 16's. I haven't been in that size bracket since I was in middle school. It's hard to wrap my head around. My husband is enjoying my "new" clothes. He says he'll be ecstatic when I'm 150 or below. I just can't concieve that that may be an actual event. (as he reads over my shoulder, he says to put a P.S. in there that he loves me at any size) I was a 26/28 before surgery, and now I'm a 22/24. That is just shocking to me. To think that I'm gonna be lower than that....... Wow! I'm just glad I was able to get off the BP meds and the diabetis meds already. If I could just get over the head hunger and get more fluids in, I'd be set. Since I have so much head hunger I've been cooking up a storm. My freezer is full of pre made meals for my husband to take to work. If he'd just take them to work I could make more....... ( He exclaims, over my shoulder, that he has been taking them to work, he just can't keep up with the overflow, and that I'm a meany for saying "bad" things about him. Gotta love the peanut gallery.) Enjoy the journey, Eleathia P.S. He's alowed to put his ten cents in since he's giving me a shoulder massage while reading what I type.

I stopped last night and picked up a pair of 18 jeans... Right now I am wearing a 20 (down from a tight 22/24) and thought what the heck I'll see how much more I will need to lose before I can put them on. (There I was, all positive and ok with it all.) I slid those jeans up and looked down to see the gap and all that positive flew out of the room. I felt that overwhelming doom that used to come as I out grew something. Thankfully my honey was home and made the comment about "Well now you knew that they were going to be too small, that is why you bought them so you would have something to 'lose into'" In my head, I knew he was totally right. (Did I mention the $4 size 14 skirt that I also picked up?!) But that doom was so immediate and scarey. After a good 10 minute conversation with myself I was able to turn it all around and was back to the positive outlook. (Thank goodness!) I guess that sometime we just want to ru**** to the end, to our goal. But the more I think about it, the more I am going to make every effort to enjoy each step along the way !

Rie Rie, I hear 'ya! I started my journey at 332, went to 321 right before surgery and now I'm 292. I have a very hard time seeing it. I can't look in the mirror and see that I've lost ANY weight. It's weird. Before surgery I thought people were nuts, but now....I do the same thing. And not only that, but I cannot imagine myself losing more than what I have so far. Me? In anything less than a 24? Nope. Can't even think that far ahead. I've been trying to concentrate on the food aspect and getting some walking in. That way, I won't be so apt to dwell on the weight issues. I guess I can't offer you any real advice. I'm sorry. But I hear 'ya and I feel that, too. *weak smile* It'll get better for us February '06ers! We made the right choice! Good luck to you and God bless. Jen Halliday

rie, rie, I have fluctuated so much in the last 6 years from a 14 to a 22 and almost 24. I kept most of my small clothes and have started to fit in to them. But for me I will not feel like i accomplished anything unless i can get below a 14. I was a yoyo dieter up and down up and down. Iwas on my up when i had the surgery ( duh) but now feel like i am only on my down...ya know. My friend who had the surgery 4 years ago wont let me buy anything my size she made me buy MEDUIM underware....I was like i will never get into meduim i mean i never fit into a large much less medium. And NO lol they dont fit yet. But i can see where yoru coming from i cant see me past a 14. And i am not a 14 yet either lol I am just into a 16 but anything less than 14 well it Just wont happen. But maybe just maybe in a year we will read this and say OMG how silly i thought i wouldnt be smaller and now look. But now its just to hard because we have been big for so long. I am with ya girl. No go buy yourself a 12 J