Things I am scared of

So i was reading a post and someone said they were scared of lettuce. I can relate here are a few things i am scared of. 1. Pills....i will not take anything i cant chew or is not liquid. (i mean really scared of this) 2. NOW Bread.....make me sick like i dont even know. Weird how bread was at the top of my Comfort food list and now I am scared to touch it or any part of it. 3. Not getting enough Protien, Water, Vitamins.....I am a protien and vitamin Junkie. I try to eat protien everytime i put food in my mouth even if its a little bit. (and yet I still do not get enough) I drink as much water as humanly possibe and lie the protien it is not enough. I have so many vitamins i could supply the country with a weeks supply. 4. Loosing my hair...hence the obsession with protien and vitamins. You know i am sure i seem like a freak but to youall i seem close to normal. Thanks for letting me share J

Julie, I think this is the only place we will find we are normal . I am also scared of a few things: *Losing hair for sure--I already have thin hair at the top of my head, imagine if I lost any more hair? I am going to be showing scalp *Developing a stricture--read my post under the "saturday what did you eat" post. *Dehydrating--yeah I've been trying hard to get in those liquids *Developing some mysterious deficiency or illness even though I am taking all my vits and meds *Getting tooo skinny & bony-don't want to look sickly So, yes I know what you mean about not feeling normal. I even told my friends that I feel different and weird now because I am DIFFERENT and i"m not the same person I used. Elisaer

Elisa, I love reading your posts and i feel you and i are alot alike we both are encouragers and are or seem to be relativly happy people glad you are doing good and yet open enough to admit when your scared...JUST LIKE ME J

AwwThanks so much Julie! I feel like I can relate to you a lot as well. We are all here to support and help each other in any way we can, right? I'm just thankful I have this place where I can come and post for help or support and at the same time get to know great people such as yourself. Elisa

It is so funny, before the surgery everyone kept asking me if I was worried, afraid or scared and I was so calm that it was disgusting ! But now with my recent turn of events and losing almost more meals than I am able to keep down I think my nerves have been firmly shaken ! Right after surgery it seemed that there was nothing that I couldn't eat- but the past few days it seems like there is nothing willing to stick around ! To be honest I am really not concerned about a stricture. I think that when push comes to shove I am just not eating slow enough and that is causing a major traffic jam in the "good ole pouch!" But last night after one of my visits to the loo to upheave I looked into the mirror and saw someone realllllly tired looking. It sounds crazy but when we were heavier our "round little cherubic (is there such a word ?) faces" always just looked plump and healthy. Last night I was far from looking healthy although still a bit plump. That scared me ! My fiancee calmly reminded me that I had just spent minutes stooped over the bowl and how in the world would anyone look ok after that ! Okokok so I didn't say that it made sense just that it scared me ! I know that there are times when my head has caught up with this whole process but I guess that last night was just not one of those times !

OK I admit it! I am the Lettuce scaredy cat!! A few more things I am scared of: Eggs- I can't keep them down Chicken- same as above MOst foods that are real. Like a sandwich, salad, anything that is lumpy. It seems that anytime I try something new it's get "stuck" in my chest and I wind up pucking. (i think I am not chewing enough but I don't know how to chew anymore) Also losingmy hair. I have very fine hair to start with. Not losing enough weight-yep I have this fear that I will not lose nearly enough as I need to. Losing too much weight-Crazy I know considering the above. But I also have a fear that I will wind up not stabililizing at soem weight. Ok I think I listed enough for now. I could go on Ally

Teri, I hear ya and feel your pain. How weird your from kingston NY i actually dated a guy from there and visited his parents....weird. Julie

Teri, I hear ya and feel your pain. How weird your from kingston NY i actually dated a guy from there and visited his parents....weird. Julie

Hi Julie We are scared of similar things. I'm also scared of not getting enough protein, water or vitamins. Its so hard for me to get the protein in, and I admit I focus on it, way more than vegetables or fruit or anything else. A few of weeks a go, when I started on food and not just liquids, I stopped drinking as much water and I made myself really sick. Because I wasn't eating enough or drinking enough. But now I'm better. I'm terrified of losing my hair, this happened to me when I had my kids, and I hated it. I can't lie, I felt horrible about it, and I hope the protein and vitamins help with the hair loss. I heard the vitamins you can get on www.bariatriceating.com really help, but I'll have to try it to see if they work. I'm scared of not losing at the right rate, too fast, too slow. Losing fast keeps me motivated, but I'm also scared of the loose skin, and even though I'm working out, I just really dont want to deal with another surgery (am I future tripping?). Thanks for posting this, because I think a lot of us have fears, and it's nice that we can express them to other people who are going through a similar experience.

Liz, Ty for responding Hey we all need to know we are all going through this its not just me or not just you. You know. Glad you are doing good keep it up. J