Cried about something silly

Yesterday, I thought I was supposed to have my one month nutritionist's appointment. However, when I called, the receptionist (a very gentle woman named Debbie) said that the appointment wasn't until NEXT Monday, the 27th. I checked my planner and sure enough I had written it for the 27th! How could I have been so STUPID?!? I hung up and just cried and cried and cried! I can't believe I cried so much! I guess it's because I was SO looking forward to eating real, regular solid food. *deep sigh* Oh well. It's just another week. In the end, it's what's best for my pouchie. Oh, and my mom said, "So, when are you supposed to get your period?" (she wasn't being mean or rude; she just knows me very well 'cuz she's my best friend) It took me two seconds to answer, "Any second now." Wouldn't you know; within an hour I had gotten it. Weird, huh? Explains the onslaught of emotions and the waterfall sprung from my eyesockets. *sigh again* I'm better now. Thanks for listening....er, reading. Jen Halliday

Plus Jen we are on such an emotional roller coaster right now. I too look forward to eating regularly again but, just in small amounts. Our bodies are really whacked out right now wandering what the heck is going on. Oh and by the way, don't freak if it happens but my period only lasted for 2 days. I usually go 5. I was like what the heck because my husband is away in the military in Iraq. The docs just said it is because our hormones are also freaking out. The doc said it could take up to 6 months until are bodies are truly out of shock! Oh and my mom is by best friend too, I can't imagine doing this without her by my side. Mom's always know us best!! Best wishes Hugs and Kisses, Sandy

Jen, I was having pretty strong cravings for the "real stuff" the week before I should have gone on it too. You just don't realize that you miss it. I tried a tidbit here or there within the guidelines of the upcoming next stage; sometimes nothing, sometimes I knew it was a little early and that was all I needed to hold me in check. Right now my big issue is "volume". All these little meals are getting on my nerves. I just want to gulp something. When I think about it and it's for the rest of my life I could scream (but I knew this beforehand) so I try to divert myself and go clean something, usually the tub; we have glass gliders on it and I used to not be able to reach all parts of the tub through one side because of my fat *ss. Now I can; I'm practically a gymnast in comparison. That usually puts me in a good frame of mind. The veterans of the board tell me all of these emotions we're having.....totally normal and will fade w/time. Smile, tomorrow is hump day, you're halfway there!

Jen, I SO understand. I went to the gym and the guy there told me i was 4 ponds heavier than i was when i weighed last and i was so upset i ran out of the gym cried and cried and cried...HARD belly cry. The next day I started my period and i should of known not to worry about the scale. but it really bothered me i was like i went through all this to go backwards lol well im ok now and i realize that now that i am at the gym i even more now should not look at scale. Hang in there YOU WILL DO GREAT! J