Food is evil...

That's how I've been feeling lately about food. My hubby is currently away...he's at the CBP academy in Georgia. I miss him sooo much . It's been a little hard dealing with the extra alone time I have....so guess who's been creeping in to fill in the void? FOOD! I have been noticing that I have been eating food to make myself feel better. Ugh, I hate that. That's why I think food is evil. I hate to admit it but I must've eaten this way all along...reason why I got so big. I really don't want to go there again...or gain any of the 140#s I have lost...not even 5#s would be okay with me. I try my best not to eat when I'm not suppose to. It's hard though. So anyway, I needed to get this off my chest and vent... I want my hubby back home! Thanks for reading. Hope everyone is doing better than I am. Elisa

Hi Elisa! I'm so sorry that you are missing your hubby so much. I cannot even imagine what you are feeling. I would miss my hubby too if he was away. How much more does he have to go? And I know what you mean about food. I have been feeling the same way lately. I just feel like I want to eat everything. I have tried my best to control these feelings but some days I end up giving in. I haven't gained but like you said, I don't want to even go there again. I just try to keep alot of healthy snacks around and just try to snack on those whenever I get the urge to eat something. I still don't feel hungry but sometimes I just want to eat something so if I have healthy snacks around then I don't feel so bad about eating them. I don't always do well and I do give in to carbs sometimes but I just say to myself that "it's o.k." and I get back on the wagon. Hang in there! Loretta

Thanks Loretta...I miss him very much. I try not to focus on how lonely I feel and how much I miss him because otherwise I think I'd cry everyday. I've only done it like 4 times. My hubby will be gone until Jan. 4, '08. I have been snacking on things like apples, bananas and 100 calorie packs...but it can add up so that's why I worry. The other bad thing I've been allowing myself to have, even though its been a sip here or sips there...is SODA. I really don't want to start up on those. Oh look...one sits right in front of me now...I must throw it away. Thanks again...I need the support...it's very much appreciated. Elisa

(hugs) I'm sorry that you're missing your hubby. I used to eat when my hubby would go out of town. I remember his first trip when I was post-op. I was so worried that I would eat. I went to the gym a lot instead and ended up losing more! Maybe you should start a hobby. Something to keep your mind occupied would help. Or, try keeping fresh veggies around to munch on. You can make it through this!

Thanks Terri! I do I miss him lots and lots. I've been trying to do stuff like go out to the mall and just walk around or work...lol...but it's always the evenings/nighttime that get me. It's when I feel the saddest. No one to cuddle with or watch tv shows...I'm not used to it at all. I appreciate your advice...thanks again. Elisa

I'm sorry you are missing your hubby so much when does he come home? Food was BAD for me this past summer and early fall, too. I just eat way too much of the wrong stuff. I have been lucky and mostly remained the same [I think I lost 4 pounds over the summer, but I gained 5 since LAST WEEK]. Tonight I start aquasize and I'm really excited about the exercise. The eating ... I don't know, it's just not any easier now to say no than it was before surgery. The only thing is that I've been down the lose and gain 100+ pounds road before and I know I can't do it again. My plan is always to just go back to basics, I love my protein shakes, I think they make me feel more satisfied thru the day so I can eat more easygoing for dinner. Only I've been out of them for over a month :P I'm going to order them from online RIGHT NOW. Today I also bought some ready made ones to get me thru till my mix comes in the mail. I know the first few days will be the hardest, because I've gotten used to grazing a lot. I dunno, I wish I had better advice. XOXO

Hi GG, Thanks, my hubby comes back home on Jan. 4th '08. I am planning to TRY and fly out in November but we'll see...it's kinda expensive. Plus I also want to see him graduate from the academy in January so that would be two trips like only a month apart...and I ain't made of money. I noticed the other day how I all of a sudden started to think...oh if I have a little bit of this I bet I'll feel better. Actually it wasn't not that explicit...it's weird...it's like I think of the food I want and then a feeling of comfort is connected which makes me want the food even more. KWIM?I've got some protein shakes in the fridge but they don't look to appetizing...hehe. OOOH Guess what? I got JOB! (Just today too) It's part-time but I think it's perfect and the pay ain't bad either...especially for part-time. I am totally surprised & nervous & excited about this. I am going to be a part-time English Language Learner Teacher. It almost happen like you said about the job you have now...things aligned for me. It's really strange how things work out...if I tried to explain it this response is going to be way too long. Thanks again for the support...it means a lot to me. Elisa

How nice...I made a bunch of spelling errors and I'm going to be an ELL teacher...LOL!

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It is Rebecca in Altanta. Elisa I would love to see youi if you come to visit Georgia. Your hubby is located about 6 hours from Atlanta though. I have a feeling if you came here, after missing him so much you would want to see only him. That is understandable. Congrats on your new job! That sounds perfect for you. Those students are lucky to have such a kind person for a teacher. You are going to be great. Food has been a battle for me for about a year. I am doing fine, but have all the same issues you discussed. I still eat smaller portions, but sometimes eat the wrong things. I should go back to protein shakes as well. i also need to exercise. Now that we have cooler wether it will be easier. My friend Alisa you met is scheduled for her RNY on October 16th! She is so excited. I think helping her is like a refresher course for me. I'm going to eat like her to get back in control. Well just wanted to catch up! Lots of love, Rebecca