Today is my one year
Hello Ladies and Gents....
FEBRUARY 23rd
Well I woke up this morning feeling a little different. This time last year I was in the operating room. This moment is very bittersweet for me. I left the 300lb girl I had carried with me for 24 years. Now I am carrying a new girl, who is 105 lbs lighter may I add...lol
Its been a hard and great year. Discovering the new me has been great, shopping at places I never dreamed of shopping at...lol Getting differrent people reactions. Being noticed by cute boys..lol Feeling like a girl not like a blob..lol
But on the other hand its been hard to. Some family and friends think your attitude has change for the worse, when you know its changed for the better. Sorry if I'm not the fat girl that rather stay in her room then go out with her friends anymore! Or the one that keeps everything to herself. BUT EXCUSE ME I JUST HAD A MAJOR LIFE CHANGING SURGERY....HELLLOO LIFE CHANGING!! Thats what I tell them, not only has it changed my life but its changed me, Im not saying I am fully changed, I'm changing everyday and I am learning how to deal with this new me, and thats what people don't get. Walk a mile in my shoes then come back and judge me, thats what I say.
Ok back to a positive note. To you my sisters and brothers I know one thing, that we all here on this site not just our board but all the boards, we have something special that we share and we will have that for the rest of our lives. It makes me feel so much better to know I have all you out there that won't judge me, or take me for granted and it is soooo awesome..lol!!! Thank you for keeping it real and me real, before during and after surgery!!
I TRULY LOVE YOU ALL....GOD BLESS
XOXO
TONI