anyone else scared?

Ok so for most of us we are in our 9th month. We are eating comfortably, doing our thing and just getting back to what seems normal for us. I am stressing latly about my job and how i dislike it so much. Looking for a new job while working one and so forth. I find myself turning to food for comfort...ahhh an old comfortable pair of jeans the food feels like. I am still being good about not eating bread and stuff like this but i find im not eating a "dinner" im grazing....BAD BAD BAD. And even though eatting makes my mind feel better its a double edge sword. NOW im scared imma get fat again. i re read the pouch rules today and my main problem is the grazing. I know i should drink when i feel hungry but i dont feel hungry im eating cause it makes me feel good. i am trying to focus on this. but i am scared....i so dont want to gain weight. is anyone else struggling with emotional eating? ANYWAY there my moan for the week ..... J

Terrified I have been grazing big time. I eat candy all the time and wonder why my weight loss has stopped. I don't know how to stop these bad habits. My husband is the most supportive man ever. He diets, eliminates carbs what ever it takes to keep me on track and as soon as he leaves for work I pull out my candy stash. Lately I have been trying to run off the carbs I am eating in the candy but last night there was just to many to run off. I need help now or else I am going to end up back where I started.

Luckily candy makes me sick lol or lord knows i would put that in my moouth too.. I am addicted to crackers....im like i dont eat bread see how good i am and yet i eat crackers like a CHAMP! I have been having carb FITS. and i agree i need help...im sliding back to the old julie. BUT teh good news i htink is i at least realize i am doing it. before i just did it. BUT i still do it lol AND i am so scared..im not a year out yet and i just cant gain my weight back i just cant....i like me now lol Good luck girl and if you ever need to vent or cry or whatever email me lol im in the boat with ya.... J

aww thanks for sharing your story Julie it helps to see that I am not the only one with a guilty pleasure. email me anytime and I know I will be emailing you too xoxoxo Corinna [email protected]

Scared? YES!! And I'm not even close to goal weight!! It's still a daily struggle and I don't know that it'll ever get easier. I guess the trick is to just take it one day at a time and if you fall off the wagon one day, get up and get back on the next day. I know... easier said than done but maybe if I tell myself this enough I'll finally get it through my thick head (and yours...hee hee) I'm just gonna have to get rid of all the snacky things I have in the house but it's hard to not have any of that stuff with a two year old running around... Like I've seen in other posts, if you have to eat something, eat something else crunchy likes carrots or how about rice cakes (they have to be better for you then crackers )... YUMMY!!! I'm just talking out of my a$$. What do I know...?

Sometimes scared flashes thru my mind, but not often. I feel like I am being proactive with using my tool. I make an effort every day not to sit back on my heels and fall back into old habits. Am I perfect every day? No way, sometimes not even every other day, but I am still sure that I am going forward, not back. I think therapy has helped me IMMENSLEY. I think joining WW has reminded me that I have to pay attention to stay in control. I think I get scared that [like before surgery] no matter how hard I work, I *won't be able to* change. But then I stop a minute and look at where I am and that I HAVE changed. I don't SEE a change in my body like you guys do, I am not really a smaller size [still wearing the same clothes, actually, though they may be big], but there are lots of other things I use to keep myself motivated. I can BREATHE, I actually had a race with my daughter today and really, well, kinda sorta, RAN. I fit in the seatbelt WITH my big heavy winter coat on when last winter I didn't even fit in it WITHOUT my coat. I'm off meds, I don't need to nap, I can get on top for sex again ... I could go on and on and I believe if you look at what you've gained, so can you! Don't let the fear get a grip of you and make you stand still, making choices that aren't easy isn't easy [duh, I can't believe I wrote that], but it's so rewarding when you JUST DO IT. Meh, I should probably shut up on a 'moan of the week' thread, but I have learned so much that the power is inside us, it always has been, we just have to use it. {{hugs}} xosm

One more practical thing to add; about the rules of the pouch and how you said drink when you feel hungry ... it's not exactly that, you are supposed to be sipping all the time, and trust me, when you do that it will NOT make you feel good to eat. Drinking all day per the pouch rules [not mealtimes] makes me feel full to the point that even when I get the emotional pull to want to snack, I feel too too full to really put food to mouth. Find something low calorie that you like to drink [I drink a lot of light limeade and water] and sip sip sip. It really has worked for me. xosm

Thank you....I know i should not let it cripple me with fear. but typically i am a worry wart lol.. I do drink all the time and i pee even more.. geniticaly i have a small bladder anyway (had surgery as a child) so its way worse. hahaha.....i think i like the "feel" of food in my mouth lol BUT the good news is...i was so stress( reason i was eating like a maniac) about how much i hate my job ...well i have applied for a county job which i think will be challenging and i only hope it comes through....keep your fingers crossed. BUT i do need to learn how to handle stress by not eating...its a struggle.....thanks again chica J

GRAZING... Wow... Yeah, I turned into a World Class grazer ! My sister-in-law had surgery, lost almost 100 pounds and then proceeded to gain 50 lbs back. Why ? GRAZING !! Someone described her as always having something in her hand or mouth... WOW, that is what I was doing ... So I have done my very very best to quit the darn grazing ! To be honest, the past two days, I haven't been too successful but I am doing much better than I had been. I am going to start a new "regime" where I have 3 meals and then two protein only meals. I don't want to call these two supplemental meals snacks, because then in my twisted little head I see it as being ok to have something that may not be a healthy choice. But if I stick to it being a protein only meal then I hope I will make a good choice and not just junk. Scared about gaining back the weight... OOOHHHHH wow.... words can't even come close to telling you how terrified I am. I talked about wanting to join WW but financially I just couldn't swing it but did some research and found out that my insurance will re-imburse me for 10 weeks of WW meetings a year. I may pay for 10 meetings for this year and then if need be, another 10 meetings the beginning of next year. I hate to say this but I am happy to hear that alot of us are feeling the same way or going thru the same thing. Again, I know that I am not alone... Thanks ! Sipping my SF fruit punch and looking forward to my protein meal of cheese sticks when I am done with my punch ! -Terri

OMG 50 pounds?? ugh now i am really scared...what was she eating? im so freaking petrafied.....can i really change my life and NOT stress eat??? ugh lord help me J