I am eating more, and concerned.

How is everybody? I have been doing well. I have been holding at 184 pounds for the past two months. I have been able to eat like I used to. I don't experience dumping, and I realize the amount I eat has increased. It is strange to be able to eat almost anything again. I have lost a total of 85 pounds, and I think I may have stopped losing at this point. My body has healed from the surgery. I guess I've settled into this weight, which is fine, as long as I don't gain. My only complaint is I hate having gas all the time, lol! I love being a size 12. It has been a long time since I have been this size. A good friend of mine was looking at pictures of me from last Christmas, and said she can't even believe I ever used to weigh that much. She has known me 13 years. It is surreal to look at those pictures. I didn't realize I was that big when I was that size, and apparently my friend didn't realize that about me either! I think I really believed I wasn't as big as I was. I was in alot of denial then. I really don't want to ever go back to that weight again. I recently had my labs done, and everything was normal. It feels so good to be healthy. I know I have to watch what I eat going forward. The days of pounds dropping quickly are behind me. My goal is to maintain and not gain. Maybe I wasn't meant to make the Century Club. That's ok, I'm grateful to be where I am today. Just needed to express myself tonight I guess. I miss all of you Feb. folks! Rebecca

Hi Rebecca, I too have noticed that I am eating more than usual. Today I finished a whole hot dog and probably could have eaten a few more bites. I have lost a total of 91 pounds and I too think I am done losing. Congratulations on loosing 85 pounds, I am glad to hear your labs are all good. Best of luck to you Corinna

Hiiiii Rebecca!! I was just thinking about you. I'm glad you are doing well. Congrats on the -85#s ! I'm concerned too about the eating. I know I can also eat a lot more than before. It scares me because of the trouble I can get myself into. I was telling a co-worker that I noticed something the other day...I was eating my lunch (some seafood) and I began to feel full but I kept going because it tasted good. I told her I had to watch myself because that's something I used to do and I just won't let myself do that again. I don't want to gain. I want to keep losing and in a way I'm sad that I'm not losing as much as before. It's kind of hard to think that those wonderful days are over and now the real hard work begins. Don't give up hope Rebecca, I knnnnoooowww you are so going to make it to the Century Club soon. Elisa

Hi Elisa, I see you got a new job, congrats! What are you doing now? How is your hubby post op?' I'm glad you were thinking of me,you are so sweet, thanks. I think of all of you so often. Rebecca

Hi Rebecca, yes I got a new job and I have about 2 months there now. I'm working for the County Department of Social Services. I'm a Social Service Assistant. I like it, it's not too bad. It's a temp position so I probably won't be there long because I am planning on going back to teaching. My hubby is post-op, going on 5 months. He's doing really well but you know men lose faster. He looks great as he is now but he wants to lose a bit more. His tummy is his problem area so he's been trying to workout to see if it'll disappear. Aww, but of course I think of you. You are such a sweetie. Glad you came on by to say hello. Elisa

I can relate...like one of your posts comments said about eatting a whole hotdog...but lets think back WWOIE......(what would I of eatten?) like maybe 3 dogs beans fries and a piece of cake with maybe 4 sweet teas?? lol I know we can eat more but we have to keep it all in perspective we are def NOT eating the way we used to and I know its scary we DO NOT want to go back to where we were. I too am stuck right under centur club but am exstremely Happy at a size 10 or 8 whatever lol (is it me or are clothes more random at smaller sizes) lol LIVE IT UP GIRL!!!! you look great enjoy! J

I am so glad to hear from you! I think that you will make century club for sure. I know you will. I think a lot of us are going thru the same think right now. I am even thinking of going to see my doctor and telling him the restrictive aspect of my surgery isn't there! But I know he won't take me seriously. I have been having horrible binges too. Like eating Halloween candy and chips and sugar cookies, a lot of it too. That scares me to death. I ate a whole taco salad the other night WITH the shell -am I spelling shell right?-brain fart...it weighed over a pound and had 800 cals...how can I eat that??? I hope my troubles help you feel better!!! I know when I see that others are having struggles too I don't feel so alone. Hang in there, we are all here for you and in this together.