BAD HABITS

Ok...here i go again... lately i have had a ton of anxiety...and i feel myself floating back to bad habits like last night i was on the phone with a freind talking about how the teacher i dated and didnt want to get serious is now getting married lol yea i was a lil aggitated and i was eating what ever i could find....(stress eating) i was sick after and magorly GUILTY! I try if i am gonna stress eat (which i shouldnt) but eat not bad stuff...like raisns or celery cheese anything but animal crackers which seem to be my poisen now. im mad at myself.... MISS EXERCISE hates it so much that i try to talk myself ou of goiong...although i never win lol but i try really hard but the fear of getting fat wins. I started riding my bike at night as well to help with the anxiety. they say exercise in a natural anti depressiant so i try that. i sit at work all doay BORED nothing to do so i pop vitamins allday to keep me from stacking out of bordom...i also found beef jery and turkey jerky is this ok i though i read it was ok. I drink loads of water to kep me so full i dont want to even think of eating but god i feel like i am everyday fighting not to stress or bordom eat...do any of you have this problem? im feeling guitly that i hate workign out even though i go i feel like i will end up hatnig it and dreading it so much i will quit and that freaks me out.... Yes i am turning into a worry wart. im so petrafied of regaining the weight and i really am doing everyhing right despite lil falls im not doing anything bad. i am irritated at everything..gawd i hope someone else is or has gone thruogh this and has some kinda advice.....im a basket case. J

I think we are all going through similar stuff. It's really hard to stay on the ball, now that our pouches are healing up and we can eat more, it's really hard not to go back to the old habits. Is there a support group you can go to in your area where you can talk about your anxiety, and your feelings? It's amazing to me how after I've had an argument with someone, my first thought is, I want a doughnut or something greasy. Food is comfort... and it's really hard to figure out, well if that was comforting me before, what do I do to comfort myself. I wonder if it's similar to taking a child off the pacifier. This is something that's made me feel better my whole life.... and now I can't use it anymore to make me feel better. At least you are recognizing the bad habit. Maybe the next time you stress eat, you'll say, whoa I'm stress eating. Am I really hungry? What am I doing here? You can always email me, if you want to talk offline, you know I'm here for you girl!

OK I started my period you think this has anything to do with it??? J

Yup. Sounds like menstral ravings to me! LOL Actually, the worry about working out is a good one. If I didn't have group classes, I wouldn't do my cardio. I hate working out alone. If I wasn't worried about loosing my number one spot as female weight lifter, I'd make excuses not to lift weights. I know myself. I know what works for me. So, I set myself up to suceed. It's not easy. Exercise is not supposed to be easy. I mean it's exercise. If it was easy and fun, we'd all be skinny witches. Right before and just a few days after I start, I feel like I'm a pig! I want to eat everything in sight. You're doing the right thing by eating "good" foods. Jerky is good for you. Lots of protein! The sodium will help with the salty snack cravings too. Hang in there sweetie. You'll make it through this!

Thank you it always helps to have peeps who KNOW what im going through!!!! J