How many times do I have to tell myself??

OK I have said this to myself and probibly many of you so many times but yet here i am beeting myself up!!! DO NOT LOOK AT NUMBERS! I SHOULD only weigh at my gym. but when i go to publix (local grocery) the scales calls me over to "get on me" "get on me" "GET ON ME" so i do....ugh...usually the publix scale make me weigh less....lol but today i was more 3 pounds more !!!! ok so logically i say..ok Jules....its midday... you been drinking water all day. your wearing size 8 pants and a med top WHO CARES what the damn scale at publix says lol......UGH! BUT here I am freaking out posting a comment about it so OBVIOUSLY I CARE!!! but why??? Do you know what i would of given to be able to wear an 8???? like maybe an arm lol i swear yet im sitting here trying to figure out why and how and when the scale will come down. SO WHEN AND IF I am 143 pounds....who is gonna know? i mean do i get a magnetic sign for my car that says i made it to goal? is the teller at the bank gonna say omg you hit your goal weight? or wait maybe my server will say wow look at you you made goal!!!! NO they will only know if i tell them the will se a normal sized person at the bank and out to eat.....and who knows maybe at 143 i will wear an 8 still and more of them being they all run differantly. SO WHAT I hit 143 and what? CANT I JUST BE HAPPY??? why am i a freak??? im petrafied of gaining then we get that STUPID post from OH saying if you gained your weight back a national TV company wants to interview you..WTF why would they do that?? we need encouragement not reminders that some fall back in to obsity...(omg im on a roll) I know so many people who had this surgery and fail....and i dont want to so i do everything i can and yet i still find myself sliding back to bad habits...and then i freak... LIKE NOW over a DAMN PUBLIX SCALE!!!!!!!!!! outta my mind J

Julie, Are we the same person? LOL!! I weigh every single day ... twice a day. I weigh before I go to bed and again when I get up. I keep telling myself ... Terri you ain't gonna weigh today. It's not good for you. Then, as I step on the scale, I tell myself again to stop. And, I can't seem to help myself. I feel like a freak too. Why do I look in the mirror and my eyes are drawn to my poochie stomach? Why does it look HUGE to me when everyone else tells me it's hardly noticeable? Why do I think my ass looks large enough serve drinks from? I think this all goes back to the fat girl brain you were talking about the other day. I go a support group for bariatric patients at a local hospital. The nurse that runs the group has explained that it can take several years for your brain to catch up with the new you. The support group helps me a lot. I know I can go there and talk about things like this and sliding back into habits and everyone there understands. They can give you hints and helpful advice. Sometimes just talking about it in the open is a HUGE help. Anytime you want to chat, vent, or anything, you can email me.

THANK YOU GF!!!!!! I was def havign a "moment" J

You sound JUST like me! WLS makes us neurotic I think!! I weigh at least once a day, sometimes twice. I knew I was going to the docs the other day, so I made my appointment early in the day so I hadnt been drinking water all day before they weighed me!! I was shopping at Victoria Secret yesterday (I dont just get happy that I can actually SHOP there) and I bought three new bras in a waaaay smaller size than I wore before. Then I got a pair of the cutesy lil crop sweat pants that have words on the ass.......I bought a M and I prolly coud have gotten the S! When I get home, am I happy enough over those smaller sizes so I dont bother weighing? Nope of course not! I get on the scale and freak out cause there is that extra 2 pounds that finds me everyday at the end of the day!!! I AM still losing........it just stresses me out because I see the numbers going up each day. They ALWAYS go back down the next morning.........but the daily fluctuation makes me nuts! I know it would be better to not weigh daily or multiple times daily, but Im like a junkie!! At the docs office this week, he proved to me that I am in fact still losing!! I had gone to see him three weeks ago and my weight was 7 pounds less this time than last. I see the sizes I am wearing getting smaller, I see my clothes getting looser.........I just stress myself out cause I apparently LIKE to stress myself out!! I think the FEAR of regaining weighs so heavy on me that I continually weigh in to prove to myself it isnt happening (YET)!!!! Yep.......my guess is WLS does indeed make us neurotic!!!

I stopped weighing myself 2 weeks ago, I'll start again sometime next month for my 8th month check in. Why become dependant upon a scale...i'm doing what i'm suppose to be doing. Scott

OMG!! LOL. I believe in weighing once a day. It is a healthy thing once a day-in my opinion-only because every other time in my life that I igore the scale I gain weight TONS of weight. There's a FINE LINE though............. You know lot's of people who've failed at WLS??? OMG-what'd they do wrong? Not follow the rules? After today I've convinced myself I've ruined my WLS. There's no way someone with WLS can consume the amount of food I've been eating at my meals... BTW-THAT POST ****** ME OFF TOO!!!! AND ON A BB FOR PEOPLE 6-7 MONTHS POST-OP...GAWD...HOW RUDE.

Hi Julie, I'll take a 143 on the scale any day! I"ve been in the 170's forever. I'm wondering if I need to strave myself to get down to the 150's. I can fit in a 10/12, Medium/Large top. I don't have any figure, just boobs. Guess that's where it comes from. I also am not making excuses, I haven't exercised due to back problems. I am down 80lbs, which is like 2 kindergarten children. I am personally just wanting to lose 20 more to hit 100lbs, I don't know if that's realistic or not for my body. Keep up the good work and run from the scales!! Jen

Hello, I haven't weighed myself in about a week. I threw out the scale at home, years ago; to discouraging. The only scale I use now, is the Publix scale. I haven't had to go to the doc for anything, so just Publix. I'm just so happy to have both my size and weight start with a one that I guess I just got to a point where I'm not so hyped up on the numbers, anymore. Would I love to make it to my dream goal, pie in the sky, of 150? You betcha! But to tell you the truth, as long as I'm healthy and able to meet all my water, vitamin, and protein needs, I'm just so happy to be able to participate that I don't care what the scale says. This month I'm going to be getting my exercise in by walking door to door, in our neibourhood, selling popcorn with my son, for cub scouts. Woo-hoo. If you know anyone who's interested in buying the different popcorn selections he has, send me a line and I'll give you the info to order online, so he can get credit. I can't put the information on here, because of TOS. [email protected] You may be out of your mind, but consider this... We had to get certified nuts to get this surgery, in the first place. You're just as wacked as the rest of us. There is no normal, just people struggling along trying to have a happy life. Gosh

I've never weighed myself but at the Dr.s office. Good thing too because I'm a slow loser and it would drive me flippin nuts-o. As for a size 8 *sigh*, ;) I feel like that's still so far away from me I can't even see it. You've done great so far, keep up the good work.