Happy Hump Day (Just talkin)

So I know from many post that we all are in the stall portion of our journey and we all hate it lol. I with help from my trainer have started a new work ot program to try to jump start my loss. Is anyone having bouts of "munchies" its bad i try to make good choices lol Some times i munch on chewable vitamins to keep my mouth busy my trainer says because i work out it can induce more intake to supply me with energy to support the callories i am burning....I dont know all i know is i feel like im eatting alot but when i do my fit day (every once in a while) im not its weird. Im not gaining and i am losing but very very slow. AND has anyone noticed the bigger size you are the truer to one size you are like if your a 22 your a 22 and you cant wear a 20 but now that i am in 10's i can also wear 8's and some 10's are HUGE and some 8's are SUPER SMALL lol weird. and remember hearing skinny people say i need to lose 5 or 10 pounds and we would be like listen B**** i need to lose 100 lol. but now 5 or 10 pounds makes a huge differance where when i was 271 5 or 10 pounds would have been NOTHING!!!! lol I was very involved in my "fat community" and i found that i said FAT all the time...."Fat girl hugry" "this bath room is not fat friendly" "So are you into fat girls" (this ome was my favorite lol) I went to fat dances and fat vacations with other fat people.....NOW i am horrified to say F.A.T.! i feel like i am kicked out of the fat community...(not that i am upset) but i still have a lot of "overweight" friends WHO now call me skinny B**** lol and i love them all but im differant and i feel weird lol I was so "happy with who i was" (lol didnt we all say this?) but i obvioulsy was not and now being that i was the Poster Child for BBW WOMEN i feel like i abandoned them. I still go to the fat dance everyone in awhile lol although i get "looks" im not one of them anymore...i keep saying "dont take my fat club card i still have a fat girl brain" Well i just wanted to say hi to everyone and give you all some thoughts hope all is well. J 271/178/143

What your trainer says about eating more since you're exercising is totally true. I've just had up my calories to 1500 a day to kick start my loss again. I just started this a little over a week ago and I lost 3 lbs this last week. It seems if you have to get that perfect balance between what you take in and what you use up to get the premium weight loss. (sigh) I never thought I would be in a situation where I would have to eat MORE to loose weight. I agree about the "fat brain" too. The weirdest thing to me is how people are treating me now. Guys now hold open doors and smile at me. Women at the gym who ignored me before, now talk to me. Guys at the gym flirt with me while I'm working with weights. I wanna smack them and say "Can't ya see I'm busy?" My husband is totally into fat chicks. He likes his women on the larger side. So, needless to day, he's had a few problems with my weight loss. I still have large hips. He likes big ole butts. I think he's liking the new me though. Just the other day he says "Ohhhh! I can get a larger proportion of your ass in my hands!" And, today he told me I was looking exceptionally cute.

NOONE FLIRTS WITH ME AT THE GYM lol my friends say they are intimidated by my beauty lmao WHATEVER....hahaha and i am one of those women who carry all there weight above the waist so my ass is SMALLLL ugh and my boobs are small but i still have thickness in my midrift lol ugh BUT i still think i look great and feel great!!! Thank you for your comments it was great to be validated J

Hi Julie... I loved your post. Today I FREAKED because I had a binge...munchies...I don't know. I ate like 7 cookies and about a cup (at least) of snack mix crap...AND 2 little minnie corndog things...FAST too, like a pre-op binge, ya know?????............#@$% what the????? GAWD how can I eat that much..???? Should I call me Doctor? I didn't throw up or get sick. It is weird at the gym now...It's Frick'en sick, but I feel like I ""belong"" now. Pretty girls and guys smile and say hi. I've mostly noticed a difference with women though....totally weird. I am only doing an hour (kick ass) class once or twice a week. Do you think that's enough to make a difference? Why the heck am I still in a 12/14 when I am now 148 and 5'5????

OK SLOW DOWN lololol (you sound like me) Did you read what you wrote? you binged like pre op NO YOU DID NOT!! Now come on before the surgery you would eat WAY more than that!!!!!! youu know you would the only thing is that when we eat fast (i do this ALL the time) it kills us....me i toss when i eat fast lol (needless to say i do it alot cause i cant stop the fast eating thing then i am sitting watching everyone eat oh yea real fun) anyway back to you. liek many have said we never had suergery on our brains WE have to fix that alone....and that blows hard core!! i struggle with all that mental stuff. about your classes.. SOMETHING is better than nothing yea some of us go more and do more but some dont do anything so the fact you are doing that is great. could you do more ..well im not gonna lie yea you could but dont beat yourself up about it. try to up it to 3 days if you can. OK IMMA SAY THIS!!!!! EVERYONE IS DIFFERANT!!! DONT COMPARE you will kill yourself. im 5"7' 178 and wear 8's and 10's BUT i work out alot and that does make a differance. muscle weighs more my trainer said if i had not worked out so much i prolly would of weighed less but i work out...so i try to keep this in perspective. Your doing great when was the last time you wore a 12??? EXACTLY! try this....up your exercise and cut one food you eat that you know is bad for you like say....cookies lol for me it would be crackers i am addicted lol and do that for a month and see if that helps. but girlfreind we are all on this road. some days its smooth sailing and some days rough road ahead. but im hear for ya and yea i binge too but good lord girl it is not the way we inged before!!!! just rmrber YOU ROCK!! STAY STRONG!! AND HEAD UP!!! when you get frustrated look beside you we are all here!! J

Julie- THANK YOU!!!! Words can't even say how much I appreciate your reply!!! Okay-you are so right. I would've binged a lot more than that pre-op....like a 2,000 or 3,000 calorie binge at least. It's just I was NEVER the, "I can only eat 1-2 ounces, or 2 tbls" person. My portions have always been bigger than other post-ops. What about you? Did your doctor tell you to measure early on? I wish mine would have. But I take comfort in "pouch rules" you know how it says, "it doesn't matter for weight if the patient has a 4 ounce pouch, or a 10 ounce pouch..." it was their eating habits. Anyway-the cookie thing is weird because I don't even like sweets. I am more of a chips, fried food and crackers girl like you. Maybe AF is coming. You are doing SO good on your workout girl. You are gonna be-and already are-so toned. I don't just want to be thin either, I want MUSCLE. Plus, we will be so much better off in the long run. I want it to be my new addiction. I know I love it, because the other day I was really upset, and I wanted to go workout-FEEL THE BURN!!!!...LOL. I am going to up it to 3 days a week. Do you like veggies? I am going to start eating those too. Take care-you ROCK-I don't know what I'd do without the support I get here! I have no other outlet. Thanks so much.

awww your so welcome!! i DO NOT measure because i feel like i need to learn what am i gonan do pull out a scale when i am out to eat? so i am trying to learn and on the whole i do evry good in not eatting to much but liek i said i always eat to fast which can also make me sick this is a problem i need to control. and at this point you shuld be eating more than 1 or 2 ounces one of the things i was doing was saying i should not eat this much and i would stop myself before i was full then get hungry faster. OMG FRIED FOODS I LOVE THEM!!!! so did i mention i hired a trainer this week to change my work out and that I AM SO SORE!!!! i cant walk lol i do like veggies and i try to maintain the rule of "protien, veggies and fruit" (potatoes area veggie right??) lol GF we are learning and growing pains sometimes HURT lol and anytime email me if you ever wanan vent cause you know i can right along with you. J

That trainer's gonna work you girl!!!! That's GREAT!!!!