hello peeps

I just wanted to say hi to everyone. Im still working out like a mad woman! lol and i think i have slowed down quite a bit. i was going down in sizes like crazy but have maintained the 14 top or large top and a 10 bottom or a med bottom now for about 3 weeks. i was losing sizes every two weeks lol but im ok with slowing down i would liek to mose more up top i hate that i am top heavy. i feel liek an orange with legs lol. emotionally...eh im ok the boy thing threw me for a loop and made me nuts but boys will do that i supose. i used to go to "fat dances" not sure if i told you all about them but they are club like envirments for big girls and men who love big girls. We called them fat dances lol. anyway i was supose to go last fri. I got axiety BAD!!! like i was embarrased i lost the weight. like the people where gonna kick me out lol i freaked and didnt go. for so long i was julie the big girl now being this new person i feel like my identity had been ripped from me. its so weird.....i look at myself everyday in amazement of who i am becoming. its so weird i was so active in the "big girl" scene. Now i am normal lol or what seems normal lol and whats my niche??? oh well...hope all is well for you all. J

Julie - Your doing awsome. I'm sorry about the 'boy' thing, perhaps you need to find a man, with good credit, a stable job, and who loves you. Things will work out. It's funny about the fat dances. I still identify with being a big girl even though I"m coming down in sizes. I've had identity issues too. I don't know whose in the mirror looking back at me sometimes. One day, we will look back and laugh. I usually am shy with all the extra attention my wls has given me, but it's so funny when people do double takes. THe one thing I've been avoiding is being the poster child for WLS. At work many people have been asking me about it and I feel like they need to get on up and look into it theirselves. We have the internet after all.. Jennifer