Thought I was all alone !

I have gotta tell you something... As I have lost weight after WLS I still find it so hard to realize that this time I may actually be able to get down to a "goal" or to a healthy weight. I said something to my DF about it and he looked at me totally perplexed. It was hard to explain to him that all my life I thought I may be able to lose enough weight following this diet or that plan. But knew that deep down in my heart that once again, like in the past, I would just not make it to "goal." Then I read the comment that Gosh wrote I was so happy "I've been conditioned, after a couple of decades, to accept myself as a large sized person. They say it takes 2 years for the mind to catch up with such a signifigant loss, as we're expected to have. I can't picture loosing weight, to be a problem for me, ever, so I guess the concept that I have to be careful not to look like Twiggy, is beyond me. For me, I can't believe how far I've come, and can't believe I may actually loose another 80lbs. Just like I'll worry about spending my lotto winnings, after I've won the lotto," Gosh I have always been heavy and the idea that I look at myself in the mirror and I am seeing someone who isn't puffy and morbidly obese amazes me. The changes in my shape, outlook, and energy shocks the crap out of me ! As my DF would say though "That is why you let that Dr. move things around and take stuff out !" Was wondering if anyone else was feeling something similiar and how you are dealing with it ! (Hell here I am losing weight after WLS and not sure how I feel about it cuz it is actually working ! ) Thanks all... Have the bestest of days !

Terri, I still don't really really believe I'm going to lose "enough". I've been unable to lose more than 40 pounds no matter what I do since I fasted for 7 months and became anorexic 15 years ago. (totally cured from anorexia) I've come to accept that my body is never ever going to give it up again. The fact that I'm losing slower than any other WL patient EVER is not helping me feel confident about it either. BUT BUT....I'm losing at least 2 pounds a week steadily AND I'm down lower than I've been in 7 years!!!!!!!! So right now I'm thankful for each 2 pounds and hoping there won't come a day when it just stops. When I lose weight on the fast all those years ago, I did have a hard time being a person who didn't need to lose weight. I remember one New Years and realizing it was the only time ever in my adult life that my resolution wasn't about losing weight! There really is a change that has to happen inside for us to see ourselves in the new light. What Gosh said is a good thing to reflect on and if we weren't spending time abouth ow we feel about it, we'd be in trouble! Thank you for sharing! Julie B

Hi Terri, yeah I feel the same way. Everytime I browse through the before & afters I'm always on the lookout for women who started at the same weight as me and when I see the after shot-- and I'm amazed that they got down to like a size 4 or whatever--I just can't believe that I can attain the same success(I dunno if being a size 4 is success--seems too small for me?).You see what I mean? To be honest, I am just so happy that I am losing any weight. I feel good--and maybe it's because I know that the weight is coming off regardless of what I do. But like Gosh said--I'm going to worry about losing too much when I've lost enough. You know I had a funny dream the other night. I had a dream some kid was being mean to me and tried to insult me by saying all these mean things and ended the insult session by telling me I was fat...and know what? I didn't even care he said that to me--because I knew I wasn't going to be for long. Elisa

Me too!! I have lost more than 100 pounds at least 5 times in my life....I stayed down each time for a total of 5 or 10 minutes!! I can't believe how the weight is just falling off and I don't know if I can accept that I will one day be a normal size person. Thanks for bringing up the subject.....because I thought that I was alone, too! Wishing you continued success on your journey...Sue

Wow-yes! I remember my weight like "events." I was 145 at my wedding in 1997 -took phentermine and lost 40 to get there-I was 135 for about 10 seconds when I went to my friends prom 14 years ago. I actually binged so much that night that my dress ripped getting into the limo-I gained 15 pounds back that week alone...started both pregnancies at 175-180 got to 260-265 with both. It's amazing how many things I remember in my life by my weight. Every picture....ahhhh does anyone else do this?

That is the beauty of these boards. There is always someone who lets us know we are NOT the only one going thru whatever we are going thru at that particular time. I have come on here with problems (to me) and found the answer before ever posting asking for advice. Ya'll keep me going. You inspire me, encourage me, make me laugh, cry..... kick my butt....THANX! I don't know what I would do without a daily dose of ya'll. We share our ups, downs, WOWs, Oh MYs, and always find something good here. I love all of ya'll. You are like becoming my new best friends. It is awesome! BTW.... too bad we couldn't have had a brain adjustment along with our WLS. It would sure have made things easier. I still don't see myself any thinner. I have lost 46 lbs and have 3 bags of clothes for Goodwill that are HUGE on me. I still think I look like the Goodyear blimp. And yes, I rate my pictures by what I weighed when they were taken. WHen our oldest daughter got married, I was the biggest thing in the wedding besides the baby grand piano. I have lost and gained so many times and there are periods of my life undocumented by photographs. I DID NOT allow anyone to take my picture. Maybe some day I will feel like having some done, but not today! God Bless you my friends! Patricia

You're making me blush! Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts, let alone quote them. One of the best things about comming to this board is the fact that we are a community of people going through the same journey. By joining here togeather, we are no longer alone, but empowered by our combined knowledge and expieriences. Some of us are goofballs , though for some reason I can't think of who at the moment Regarding milestones and wow moments.... My wow moment was when my stomach didn't stick out farther than my chest Enjoy the journey, Gosh