I went for my 1 yr. post op visit yesterday. Total loss 89 lbs if I did my math right. I've lost 25.6 lbs. since I saw him for my 6 month post op visit. Not bad, but not great either. My PCM has finally figured out that I have hypothyroidism. I started on synthroid almost 2 weeks ago. Between that visit and the one I had yesterday I've lost 4 lbs. I'm hoping that I will start to lose a little faster now that I am on medication for my thyroid. I've known for a while that something wasn't right with my body, I just didn't know what. Its funny, my mom had me ask the doctor to check my thyroid at 6 months post op because of symptoms I was having, but the bloodwork came back fine. She thinks it was a false negative then and that I actually had something wrong with my thyroid then. I'm still trying to get my chronic pain and depression under control. So far nothing seems to be working for either. My psychiatrist has started me on my 3rd antidepressant since surgery along with pills for anxiety and pills to help me go to sleep. I'm still on blood pressure pills (for my kidneys, not bp) and cholesterol meds. As for pain, I'm still doing the fentanyl patches and percocet for breakthrough pain. Plus I still go through bengay like water. I'm still not very hungry and pretty much have to force myself to eat most days. My PCP checked some bloodwork a few weeks ago and what he checked was fine except for my thyroid. I'm having blood drawn again by my surgeon in about an hour or so. I told my surgeon that I'm happy with the weight loss but I feel worse than I did before surgery (healthwise). He seemed shocked. He said that most his other patients report the opposite (healthwise). Leave it to me to be different than everyone else. I really feel so alone in all of this. The doctors don't seem to know whats going on. I don't know whats going on. It seems to me that there is a lot that isn't known about this surgery, at least by any of the providers I work with. I like answers, not "well that's odd". Well I'm off to another doctor appt. this morning then to my psychiatrist this afternoon. Oh and tomorrow I go see the opthamologist because my eye sight seems to be getting worse. Last time I was there a few months ago, I was told that I'm starting to get glaucoma. A year after WLS and here I am still sick and tired of being sick and tired. Pathetic...huh?

Thank you to all that have been such a help to me personally this past year. I may not have always posted but I never missed a day with out my friends. You all have kept me going and blessed me so much. This last year has been full of changes in my emotions, weight, family and friends. I still can not believe I am 127 lbs. and someone told me I was so tiny, I had to look behind me to see if they were talking about some else. Yep, they were talking about me. I've had many WoW moments this past yr. I plan on having many more. My BMI is 22. So everyone is happy and I can stop losing weight. I am feeling little scaried about maintaining - that was my past problem..I know I can do this - I have the best tools in the world to get me through this, to be normal and enjoy life as so many of my friends do. I have to thank God for helping me the most - because He is always there - sometimes you just need to talk to someone and it may be 2:00 a.m. I have the pleasure of helping my husband through his journey of weight loss. Jan 24th, 06 he had his surgery. He is doing very well - he has lost 34 lbs. so far. Take care and congrads to all that have made it to goal and to those who are getting there.

wow, lynne. you've done fantastic. keep dreaming, girl. it's the best way to get there. dream it, then do it. and you're so right. there are so many things for which to be grateful. dorthe

too cool. congrats on your upcoming BR. dorthe

Hey All! My friend Jennifer is having her surgery today...and becoming a new loser! I thought it would be nice if you could give her some words of encouragement as to what the next year might hold for her. She is pretty excited about this new journey and I just thought it might be neat to have fellow Februaryians share a word with her... Thanks ((hugs)) Tara Here is her support page if you would like to post there instead. http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/members/status.php?N=H1127861666