Confessions....

I have been abusing food lately and eating around my pouch. I know what I am doing and am trying to stop. I recommited myself this morning and am doing okay today. I have told my friends and family what has been going on with me and have asked for their continued support. I scared myself the other day... I went and bought a candy bar and ate it then made myself throw it up... WHAT WAS THAT??? I never even did that when I was 287 and desperate... I haven't done this to just trade out for another eating disorder. Am going to do a lot of reading today and try to get myself back on track! Is anyone else having problems or am I just being crazy?!?!

no you are not alone....I have been having the same problem with food. I haven't made myself throw up yet, just made myself sick. I need to get back on the stick too

Meryl, no you are not alone, I haven't puked but I've caught myself more and more recently testing the waters. I have decided to get back to basics and if I get that desire to eat (when it isn't feeding time) to drink a protein shake. It is helping a whole lot. Dana