Weight going up!

Besides not finding a job. It seems that my body wants to gain weight I was so close to being out of the 2 teens and I've shot up back to 220. And the doctor's office tells me it my fault. I feel like a loser. It's bad enough everything wasn't going right in my life. But atleast I had the weight lose going. But now I got nothing. I hate the fact that people I know that just had surgery over the summer is almost at goal and I'm no where near 100 pounds down mark. I'm very happy for them. But I'm very upset for me My worst fear is I'll never be skinny, I'll never get out of the darn 200 pound area and I'll never be a flight attendant. Because they do still judge on weight. Sorry to vent. But I just need some encouragment. Maria

i've been told so many times not to compare yourself to what other people look like or how much weight other people have lost. you'll get there i promise! don't lose hope...and don't give up on yourself. you're doing just fine. my weight stalls and goes up and down all the time but i try not to let it get me down. you'll get out of the 200's before you know it and you'll be a flight attendant. never give up on your dreams. just think of how far you've come just since february. if you ever need someone to vent to feel free to email me anytime. Steph 350/330/184/165

Maria, Try not to let it bother you hun (I know easier said than done right?). Everbodys weight flucuates from time to time. I really doubt that it was real weight that youve put on. Youre probably just retaining some water, our scales can just be a pain and drive us nuts!. I know before I had my hysterectomy, my weight flucuated a good 5-10 lbs before my cycle. Is there any chance that maybe thats whats going on? Have you been eating a lot of salty, sodium rich foods lately? That got me 2 months ago. I had some chinese - garlic chicken I think- well the next day I hopped on my scale and it was up 6 pounds over nite!!! Scared the sh** out of me! Of course by the end of the week the 6 was gone plus 1 or 2 more. I'm sure its something like that with you. Get in as much water as you can till you just float to the bathroom every 5 minutes and that will help more than anything. So maybe you havent lost a 100 lbs yet, but look how far youve come! I read in your profile that you can wear your friends sisters stuff who was always smaller, and that was a few months ago. That right there is a HUGE accomplishment!!!! As long as you keep working your tool, get your protein and water along with some exersize you WILL get out of the 200s. Heck, your pretty close already. I bet youll be in onderland before you know it. Dont you give up on being a flight attendant! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!! My husband works for Delta so we fly a lot. Trust me the flight attendants are not all skinny! Most of them look healthy enough and are probably around 150 or so (my guess is around a size 12 on most of em) Yeah you have some of the stick thin 100 lbs soaking wet girls ya just wanna smack on priciple, but in reality there are not that many that size. The ones you see are all actors on tv. Just keep going out there and trying, dont ever give up on something that you want so bad or youll end up regretting it the rest of your life. It might take some time, but when youre finally on that plane -serving me a drink of course- than you'll forget days like this and everything that youve gone thru will be worth it. Our bodies like to play tricks on us sometimes and we just have to ride with it. Give it a week or two and I bet the weight that youve "gained" (like I said its probly water retention) will be gone and maybe a few more. Were all gonna have ups and downs its just part of the process. Bare with it and you'll come thru fine! Keep us posted and remember -DONT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF! YOURE WORTH IT! If ya do I'll just have to track ya down and kick ya in the butt! Krystle

Krystal is right, Maria. It could be a number of things making the scale go up. You look like a young woman who may still have her menses. I do not so do not consider this issue. All of my daughters have fluctuation at their time of the month and they are normal sizes. You will be a flight attendent. I also travel quite a bit and most are normal sized 10-12. You vent all you want - this is what helps us all to remain on track. I'm just sorry you are so down on youself. You deserve happiness and any career you choose. Do something nice for yourself. I get my feet done when feeling like you do. Sarah

Sorry it's taken me so long to answer. Most important that you all for you encouragment and all of those wonderful thought and reminders that I'm alot better off now then I was back in Feb. I just get so down and hurt when I feel like I'm failing.Plus not working and sitting around doesn't help. I had a friend e mail me and told me to read something in the bible and I was able to do it. And it made me feel better also. That I am not alone and try not to worry because things are bad right now. Because God has a bigger and better plan for me. I just have to keep my faith and keep on trying. Plus I have to stop trying to focus on the bad and look at all the good I was able to do. As for my dream of being a flight attendant.. I am never going to give that up. But it is a fear that it may not happen. But I'm going to work so very hard at it that it will happen Thank you all for reminding me of that Love Maria