Can I ramble? (turned into a gripe-fest)

Hi guys, I've been reading other posts and when I try to compose a reply lots of other things have been entering my mind. So here goes the rambling. Okay, I have my goal set at 130. Those of you who've seen my profile and full body picture at 155 might be able to help. I'm now only 5# less, but close to 2 sizes smaller now though I haven't lost anything for the past 6-8 weeks. The jeans I'm wearing there are 10's and the 8's I have now are loose enough I could get 6's. My calves are 16 & 17 inches with good muscle difinition. My thighs are also large (haven't measured) but I also have good muscle definition in them even through the loose skin. I have to get stretch jeans so my legs will fit into them and they're still loose in the butt. My husband is adding to my stress so I'm eating more at home. I work a full-time job and am taking 2 classes. I have to go to class on my own time even though work is paying for 1 of them. I get home late and still have to cook and do the dishes so I'm not getting much time to spend with him or do homework and he's not helping out much with cleaning. We go out of town nearly every weekend, so there's no time for homework and cleaning then. I am having a hard time staying away from his junk although I am doing much better lately - 1 Oreo all night or every other night instead of 1 Oreo 3 times a night. I don't like bouncing so much when I run. In fact, that's the main reason I haven't run as much lately. It would hurt my belly button scar from gall bladder surgery, and my boobs are already so deflated that even with as good a sports bra as I have, I still bounce a lot and am getting quite a bit of muscle soreness in my neck and upper back. But... I don't want to have to quit running. I like it way more than I ever thought I would. I like the challenge of seeing if I can run farther today or faster next week. What I'm trying to figure out is where the 20# is going to come from? I can see that I still have a bit of a belly pooch, but I have quite a bit of loose skin, too. I guess the other thing I'm trying to figure out is if I'm making excuses for not losing any weight lately, or if I should even worry about getting below 145. I guess that's about all I have to say. Any input from you folks would be greatly appreciated. Linn

In my opinion, you look awesome, and very healthy! How do you feel? I guess that's the important thing! If you feel as great as you look, then you need to decide if the stress is worth it for you to lose even more! You've done a great job so far, maybe if you concentrate less on the scale and more on finding some fun time for yourself, it will come off without the effort! Good luck! Melissa 282/193/180