Please forgive me.....
Hello to all that read my prior post. Even though nothing has changed in my life concerning my WLS, I really do believe that my saddness that evening when I wrote it.......was because my best friend died that night of lung cancer at 7 pm....and I didn't find out until the next day.
It has been such a long struggle for both of us. I have only one breast because of that dreadful disease........a part of me has died with her this past year.....little by little as I cared for her. I found out I had a tumor in my left lung a couple months ago, the tests were negative on Cancer but it's still there and could change metabolism within 48 hours to malignancy. She fought valiently..and her last words, I was told by her children.....
"Please tell my bunny (my nick name) that I am worried about her and that I love her." She died an hour later.
Please forgive me, so many struggles in all of our lives.......and I guess that I have let so many heartaches in my life recently cloud my judgement. I shouldn't have written that post, but I am truly uplifted by all the kindness and support I received in email.
Don't give up on me guys..........God is not finished with me yet.
Love,
Katherine
There is no way in hell we are giving up on you. You have been through so much. I am so sorry about your friend. She is in God's hands now, safe and sound.
You need to trust God has her in his loving care and you need to concentrate on yourself. Please take care of yourself and do all you can to asure your health.
We are here for you.
Love,
Joanne
PS...nothing to be forgiven for.
Katherine,
We all have times that the weight of the world is on our shoulders. We are so fortunate to have people we can turn to to vent, cry, or just talk. You have nothing to be forgiven for.
I'm so sorry your friend passed away. I know it is very hard for you.
DEFINITELY not giving up on you either. You are a success and will continue to be one.
Mary
Katherine,
I'm so sorry to learn of the death of your friend at the same time you are dealing with so many personal health issues. Losing someone that you love and can share life struggles with, is a painful blow that leaves you feeling adrift and vulnerable.
It's hard to watch someone you love struggle so hard, only to lose. I have a friend in very similar cir****tances. After a long battle with infertility, she adopted a newborn in March and 2 weeks later, her bowel ruptured and they found ovarian cancer and cancer nodules literally "throughout" her abdomen. We are now in the middle of her first round of chemotherapy. I'm trying to lighten the effects of chemo by telling her we'll go bald together...
Don't ever feel like you need to apologize for sharing hurts, down times, etc. with us. We all have them and what joy to be able to come here and pour your heart out in a safe forum.
God loves you, Katherine, and he has not forgotten who or where you are. I will pray that the "peace that passeth understanding" will fill your heart and home today.
Fondly,
Julie
Hi Katherine, so sorry to hear about your friend. Know that she is in a much better place.
You know that you can vent here and have people that care about you listen and send you words of encouragement or let you know that you are not alone in your feelings. Who are we to forgive you? To us, you have not done anything diabolical, you were just stating your honest feelings. You need to work on forgiving yourself. I once was there too, I was so unforgiving and unaccepting of myself, everything got me down and I realized that I was on a self-destruct pattern. I just needed to realize that before I could let anything else make me happy, I had to be happy with myself. I worked on realizing that I am worthy of love, respect, and acceptance. My body is the only body that I will ever have, perfect or not, and I must accept it, as it is, not how I want it to be. Seeking professional help as well as spiritual guidance is totally acceptable these days and may help you lift your spirits also.
I pray for you to have peace of mind to know that in attempting to get healthier, you have shown yourself love and you deserve it. I will continue to pray for you,
Dorothy
Katherine, it is with a heavy heart that I read your post about the mountains you face both ahead and behind you. Of all the posts I read, you write with such love and joy and faith. It is those three virtues that I hold strong to. I have had to lean on so many things these past few years. We are a family here, with a special common bond.
Denise
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