Old Head Games...

I had some old thoughts come back into my head last night. I was in Prattville by myself last night. I had to pick up Alden. She was at my sister's house. I hadn't had supper, so I bought a crunchy taco supreme from Taco Bell. I enjoyed it and was quite full. Later that evening I had to go out to the grocery store to pick up bread and milk. Here is where the old way of thinking came in... I had a couple of one's in my pocket and I was alone. I thought I would swing by McDonalds on my way home , from the grocery store, and get a single hamburger (I was thinking this as I pulled out of my drive) I went shopping and loaded the groceries. I forgot all about the dollars in my pocket until I went for my keys. McDonald's went through my mind, but I was still full from 2.5 hours ago. THANK GOD!!! I remember eating just because it tasted good, and I thought I deserved it, because I never got out of the house much, or alone for that matter. I just hope I don't really act on my old feelings. This is what got me in trouble. I just love food and the taste of food. Sigh... Debbie -53

I didn't know you were in Prattville....I live in Birmingham. I went to Troy State with some people from Prattville. But, I know what you mean. It is hard for me to. I went to luch with my parents on Sunday, and got what I was sure was less than what I "used" to eat. I was wrong. They threw away about 3/4 of the plate. When will our heads catch up with the rest of us. Noelle

Hi, I actually live in Millbrook, which is just the other side of the interstate. I worry that I will fall back into my old habits. I was able to go on last night because I was still full, but there will come a time, when I'll have to make a conscience decision on my own, because my pouch will be able to hold more. I believe we will be coming out of the honeymoon stage within the next two months. That is scary too. Debbie -53

Gee, Debbie, I can so relate. I didn't realize until after surgery, that I could drive down any road in town and know right where the drive-ins were and how often I pulled through to "treat myself." I've experienced the same thought process you describe with McDonald's and it scares me; Just like you, I know there is simply no room so I generally don't go, but I'd be less than honest if I didn't admit that I HAVE gone in and bought something, only to take 2 bites and realize I'm too full to eat it and wind up throwing it away. Trying hard to learn to ask "How much do I REALLY want it?" and "Can I just go on home without it?" but it's a real, honest struggle and conversation in my head. Sooooo glad to have this board. No one but you guys would understand how difficult making these changes can be. Julie 247/181/150

I agree ... so many old habits. They can be hard to break, but I am taking it a day at a time and hopefully learning new habits along the way. Mary

Right there with you Deb. i think i posted a couple of weeks ago about driving home from job #2 about 8:30ish and i go right by a McDonalds. Numerous times since my surgery I have found myself thinking how good a McChicken would be and they are only a 1.00......then i have to force my thinking to tell myself that yes i am hungry but i am 5 minutes from home and is that fried piece of chicken really the best food choice for me. No it isn't. So far i have just managed to drive on home and eat something i have prepared or a protein drink that is a better choice. Congrats on conquering the food beast!!

this is a little OT; but how funny...there is a Prattville here in OK too!! I live about 2 miles from there strange, huh?

I too, can relate! I am fortunate that there is not a lot that appeals to me at the fast food places. But, I "think" I feel hungry a lot more now than I used to and have given in at times to grazing, usually at night when I am home. It's not a lot, but it is scary, because I do not want to fail at this as I have all my other attempts to lose. That's why I think it is so very important to stay connected with a support system, because we will make mistakes, but with each others help WE WILL SUCCEED!! There is strength in numbers! Down with bad habits!!