Hi Erin,

Its totally like a buyers remorse type thing. The hormones are raging..... One min I am happy, then next sad, then next angry... all in maybe a 5 min span!

Thanks for the words of encouragement... And keep up the GREAT work!!!!!!! 

Thanks Deb, It does help! Thanks so much. And good luck tomorrow. Keep us posted.

I haven't had my surgery yet.  As a matter of fact, it is tomorrow.  However, I've been told it takes about a month to really feel like yourself again or even better.  In our support group, we have been told it's like going through buyers remorse and asking ourselves why did we do it?  Then at the end of the month, things really get going, and you feel great.  My month should start February 28th. LOL  Anyway, I hope this helps.  It sounds like you are doing great!!!!  Keep up the good work and you are already inspiring me with your weight loss.

Deb

Good Morning Everyone,

I just needed to come on here and vent/ b*tch for a second. I know some of you will understand me.

I am a week post op and feeling great! Thankfully.... Still a little gas, But I will live!

Anyway.. I am totally discouraged... Becasue I DO NOT feel any different.

A little about my journey.... In November at one of my pre op appointments I weighed my highest 308lbs. Another pre op appointment I went for in December I was 299... They said "Ok, we want you to loose 15lbs prior to surgery!"... OK!!! I thought to myself, yeah right... If I could loose 15lbs I would have done it already.. Now I go for my pre pre op... like a week before surgery and I was 281lbs... Yay, I was down 18lbs. I was so excited, thanks to my liquid diet. Then last monday (MY DAY) they weighed me right before surgery and I was 270lbs!!!!! Now... We are talking 38lbs total!!!! Which I am so excited about and grateful... But why do I not feel ANY different!!!!! 

I have alot of supportive people around me, whether it be friends, family, co workers, neighbors etc... and They are like, "Oh, you look great!" But, I feel like they are suppose to say that.. and It honestly gets me mad. I know I am being really hard on myself and I know this wasn't a quick fix.. and the weight was just going to go away.. When I woke up one day. But how long until "I" do feel great?!?!?!?

Anyways, Thanks everyone for listening!!

have a great day!

Wow, well I've been so worried about telling the surgeon about my not really knowing what  i am doing, but to my relief. we will be in better contact now. I went yesterday and he was happy with the way i and my weight loss was looking down 30lbs since Nov.

I can start on full liquids and maybe go back to work, if i feel like it, (I sit at a desk) I told him, I'll wait til next week when I see my PCP and then go back.  I can now drive too.

Sadly his office staff was about as blind as i was. Doc. says he knows there is a handbook I should have gotten through he's bariatric lady, but she was the one that messing everything up for the last 2 years with me, and I can only imagine how many others. that 's why they had her close up and leave.
 
So now the staff at his office have been trying to play catch up. All the paperwork is still not at the office, yesterday the woman said they don't know where the pre-cert. forms are for new patient to get the surgery. SO WOW they have there hands full over there. 

The good thing is i told him I have had great support from the people on this site and have been "winging it" with their advice since. He said call anytime with ANY questions and that he will find the hand book and send it to me.

So again I just want to say THANK YOU to every one for being so great and understanding. Your advice is not just asked for, but I have been taking it as well.  And with your help I will be a success at this and feel much better about my decision.

THANK YOU!