Hey Erin

Thanks!
2009 is going to be our best year yet!

Awww...thanks sweetie.
I have never ever been assertive and i am differently non-confronting.
I hate to make waves and i really hate to upset anyone.

I know we have all worked sooooo hard to get here.
I would be sooo devastated if i got to the hospital the day of my surgery and they said...
"uh u cheated...yeah well then never mind" LOL

I am on day 7 of my wonderful liquid diet. Everything i drink just goes right through me.
(and of course its at the worst time possible..not that there really is ever a good time to have diarrhea..LOL) 
I'm not Hungary anymore...my tummy is fine and liquid fills me up. Its my HEAD that says.."hey..its Thursday..eat some pizza..Hey its Sunday Morning..lets go to home town buffet...hey...you passed 3 MacDonald's on the way home from work..why didn't you stop and get your morning sausage/egg/cheese biscuits...don't worry you will pass 2 more on the way to drop off the kids at school...you still have a chance!!" LOL..yes my head actually tells me that!

You know...i read every ones replies to "uh-oh" and thought..."damn it...I'm going to have something too!" i have lost 28pounds since Sept when i first saw my surgeon and he said i needed to lose 7pounds. So technically i have lost 4 times the amount that i was suppose to.
My husband said this morning that I should go with him to Home town buffet because i have been so good that i DESERVED to have a treat. Oh brother...i DESERVE a TREAT?? I deserve to be true to myself and i have got to stop thinking of food as a TREAT. Its got to stop being my entertainment and my security blanket and my best friend. I have got to start seeing it as just nourishment. I had no idea until i got on this liquid diet how much my life revolved around food. everything from the way i would drive home from work to the way i would choose which side of town i wanted to run my Eran's...i decided how to run my life based on what fast food place i would drive by. UGHHHHH! Even planing my daughters birthday party...i couldn't get my focus off what i would make and what kinds of snacks we would have. I didn't even realize it until my daughter piped up and said she wanted to have more games this year at her party....games at a party..what?? LOL  no, a party is all about the food!!! LOL 

My body is doing well on liquids...my head not so much. I am so glad i have this 2 weeks to get through the withdrawals from carbs and to wrestle around with my head about not eating. At least this way i know going into surgery that i CAN do this...I WANT to do this and i DESERVE to do this.

Brutally honest has never been my thing...but damn it..this is important!!
Thanks so much for not being upset with me!

LOVE U GUYS!
(((HUGS)))





 

The postop bloating continues for me to be my biggest problem.  Yesterday I was able to pass a small amount, but not enough.  I don't really burp at all.  Walking and taking the max # of gas-x strips don't seem to help much, but I try anyway.  It has now migrated to shoulder pain in addition to the abdomen.  I am getting really tired of this.

Good news, however that adding Benefiber powder to my liquids yesterday resulted in my first (tiny) BM since surgery last Tuesday, so I hope this a sign of progress.

The bloating could be from the gas they pump into your abdomen during surgery.  It can take about 2 weeks to go away.  I am still suffering from it.  Best wishes - sorry it was so stressful for you!

You are funny!  The Sunday before my surgery (last Tuesday) I was a cleaning whirlwind at home.  I literally was cleaning and organizing all day long and I had such energy to do it because my surgery was right around the corner.  It was a great motivator!  You will do great!  Hang in there.  I waited since last May and finally decided to self-pay as this was important to my health.