Cold feet? Jitters .... surgery the 26th. (long)

I have been planning for this day (surgery day the 26th) for almost a year now.  I have done ALL my homework, ALL my research, I know everything I am suppose to do and am going to go through, I bought my vitamins for the next 3 months (ALL of them, multi, calcium, iron, B12, etc ...spent close to 200 bucks), I have all my post op "food", I am in the 3rd day of my liquid diet, so I am almost there!

Well, I was thinking this liquid diet will be so easy, I don't know what everyone is whining about (and I only have to do it for a WEEK!).  Well, I was wrong .... day 1 was okay, day 2 was horrid, and today is better than yesterday.  BUT I find myself thinking "what am I about to do to myself?"  "did I really exhaust all other options?"  "I am healthy (now) ... don't fix something that isn't broken." .... they just keep coming.  Don't get me wrong ... I want this surgery so bad, but why am I thinking these things??? Why am I questioning my decision NOW ... why not 3 month or even 1 month ago?!?!  

I am so scared of the "unknown" ... will I be one with lots of complications?  Will I not lose any weight and fail?  .... I have 3 children (8, 6 & 1) and I find myself thinking about them and if I have complications and am in and out of the hospital, they deserve me there every day to help, love and nurture them.  I just don't know ... I have so many things running through my head ... they just came on all of a sudden BRAIN OVERLOAD!  I don't want to end up like my father who had a stroke at age 46 (has high BP, cholesterol, diabetes), my whole family has high BP and is overweight.  I just want to set a good example for my kids but can not do it without help (from my tool).  I WANT THIS, but why these thoughts NOW?  Did any of you ever have any thoughts close to this???  

Thanks for listening to my rant/vent ... I just needed to let it out.

Hey Karen! My surgery is Monday also and you are so not alone. I've been a bundle of nervous excitement for about a week now. I too have wondered all the bad stuff like what if I'm one of the WLS failures, what if I have complications, etc, but at the same time I keep thinking what if I didn't do this. Sure, I'm generally healthy now, as healthy as anyone who's morbidly obese can be, but for how long? My dad had his first heart attack at 48, so that right there combined with the morbid obesity pretty much makes me a heart attack waiting to happen.

I've read stories about people who have had terrible complications post-op, but the majority of all of them said that they would still have the surgery all over again. That says a lot to me.

If you ever want to talk or vent, let me know! Sharing the same date, I'm sure we'll have a lot of stuff to discuss in the coming months

Take care! Only 5 days to go!!

Say a prayer, take a deep breath and know that before any surgery, people tend to get worked up. I already warned my hubby because i know myself, i have had surgeries before and each time, i feel like "OMG, I am going to die", but that is my nerves. try going for a walk, or doing something that will help you calm down adn think about other stuff.
xoxox

I am 12 days POST-OP and feeling great !! I had the same worries as you ! It's not a piece of cake but it's not the hardest thing I've ever had done either !! I would do it all over again !! Everything will be ok ! If you need to talk please message me !

Thanks ladies .... I am just so stressing over this ... I know deep down inside everything will be okay.  I am glad I am not alone with these feelings :)  Thanks again ... you guys really did ease me (for the time being lol).  Good luck to all the upcoming RNY'ers !!!!  And CONGRATS to the ones who are healing wonderfully!

I was Lap-Banded on 1/20, but thought I'd also encourage you. You are a mother of 3 children. You already have the hardest job in the world. This will not be a cake walk, but it is do-able. Good luck to you!

Dawn

Hey Karen my surgery is tomorrow...And I went through those same thoughts... I cried myself to sleep for 2 nights straight. With surgery approching tomorrow I have calmed down and know that I am doing this for my good. Just know that this is the best choice for you. How many more diets, or failed attempts at weight loss can we stand? Know that this is better for you and your children... Hope this helps!!!! I'm thinking about you!

I think it is totally normally to question the unknown, it reinforces the fact that we're all human.  I had my RNY on 1/8/09 and had no complications, and no intolerances to the thicker liquid diet I have been on since I got home.  I am SO happy to have lost 30 lbs since my initial surgical visit and I am off 3 out of 4 diabetes medications and off the blood pressure meds.  I am older than you guys but only wish I had this surgery before I had gotten diabetes and high blood pressure.  This was a life saving surgery, no doubt about it. 

I had my visit with my surgeon today and he congratulated me for how well I've done thus far and he reminded me that this surgery and the weight loos reduces my risk for cancer and stroke by 70% not to mention all the other stuff already mentioned.

I will add you to my prayer list and please know that you will be just fine.  You are well prepared and you have a top notch surgeon that knows what to do.  All of you are going to do great.

Big warm hugs

Barb

Hang in there.  Say a prayer, ask for guidance.  I did!  I ended up changing my mind at the last minute.  I was supposed to get RNY but got lapband instead.  I hope I made the right decision, but only time will tell!

I had the same worries as you.  I was worried about my kids more than anything.  I think your thoughts are totally normal!  I'm sure you will do fine!