Reindeer are harnested and ready to Launch but sad

I am finishing up the Nut and Psych this week.   Have an endoscopy Dec 29th, Cardiology Jan 5th and Pre-op testing Jan 8th so I am hoping everyone gets the results in and the letter to the Insurance. (my previous carrier had an exclusion)

The Surgeon is not totally booked for Late Jan.   Lost 13 pounds.. So for now I have the reindeer's harnessed and on the launching pad.

has anyone striated feign sad about the surgery .   I started feeling sad after a support meeting last night

No sad feelings here. I am just excited to be getting a fresh start at  a healthy life. Good job on the 13 pounds. Hopefully you will get a Jan date.
Emily

I don't think I feel sad, but I feel serious, I wonder if I can really give up my old friend/enemy--food.  I wonder if I really will change and not go on eating binges like I do now.  I hope I'm worthy of the time, energy annd money put into this surgery. That I can take the weight off and keep it off. 

I gave up smoking for this surgery.  I think that was a big step b/c cigarettes were like a friend/enemy to me as well.  I'm not worried about the surgery going well.  I have faith in my physician. And I had abdominal surgery about a year ago and bounced back quick.  It's just my ability to do this thing long term that has me worried.

Plus I have been doing some greiving over foods I won't be able to have again.

Hugs,

Deb C

I don't see it as a food I will never or have again  I have a  friend that had this 3 years ago and she can eat everything.  But some she chooses and some she does not... Some is a taste and that is satisfaction to her.    So I don't grieve the food.. 

The way I look at it I will Look at food like a normal person.   I don't want to look at food as a friend, a lover an enemy but like someone who has more in their life then food.  

I have taken on that understanding last week when I saw this women at work,  who is stick thin. She brought in her lunch and it  was a roast beef sandwich and a big bag of wheat thins.   I thought is that what a thin person eats?  WOW.  Then I watched  her not devour it but eat it.   She had what I would concider in my old thinking as a taste  maybe 5 chips.   And the sandwich she had perhaps a half it not less and she was satisfied.   And put it away.      That is what I want food to be to me something I enjoy not hog down to feel numb.    I hate that feeling of being numb.

Your have almost a month to go...Keep focused.

I know what you mean about devouring food to feel numb.  In my effort to prepare for surgery I have been practing taking smaller bites and really chewing my food.  For me that has made food more satisfying.  And I have less of the desire to gorge. I also try to realize when I'm in gorge mode that no amount of food satisfies me, so I might as well quit eating.

Keeping my eye on the prize,

Hugs,

Deb