What are your fears?
With the surgery? Mine are death, hairloss and what all of that extra skin is going to look like. I know that now a days death is so rare with Gastric Bypass but what if I'm the one in 1000. Know what I mean? I have 3 very young boys who need me. If I gone who will take care of them? DH is great but I wonder if he could handle day to day life as a single father with 3 boys.
I think my lack of sleep is catching up with me!!
I started this whole process 3 years ago and then give it up for fear of dying. I finally came to the realization that If I die, I won't know it. I also am killiing myself daily with the fat and gaining weight. I have no quality of life as I have so many health issues and it is painful for me to do things. I know, I won't die, What I worry about now is complications such as leaks, or bowel obstruction. bowel obstruction is very common and can cause you to have to have another surgery. Little things like that are my fears.
Emily
I too am scared of hair loss. I know that it CAN be prevented with enough protein intake. I plan on going overboard with my protein...lol
I have a HUGE fear of the extra skin. I know that too can be fixed with surgery. But then you are left with an ugly scars. I am sooo afraid of being out of proportion. Right now i am kinda fat all over and i don't really have one spot that really stands out. What if i have a normal looking body afterwords but have major extra skin hanging from my belly? Or look good everywhere else except for my huge sagging upper arms?? I plan on doing exercise daily to try and help prevent all of that.
You know...i told my husband the other night...i KNOW how to be fat...i have been fat for a very long time. I don't know how to be skinny. I have no idea what that bothers me but it does. How weird huh?
Oh...I'm also very worried about "DUMPING" and if i eat too much and throw it up. It comes up just as it went down. ( RNY...no stomach juices so it comes up dry...you kinda choke it up...its very traumatic and you will only do it once I'm told.You feel like your going to die...LOL) I had a friend that had WLS years ago and when she had that "dumping" it was the WORST smell you have ever smelled. I plan on keeping air freshener with my in my purse at allll times!!!!!! How embarrassing. ALL of what i just mentioned CAN be prevented!!! Just eat what your suppose to and how your suppose to and you should be fine!!!
Its all the "WHAT IF's" that i lay in bed at night and think about. I guess the trick is not to worry about it too much and focus on the POSITIVE. Start thinking of ALL the things that you WILL be able to do with your wonderful little boys. How much healthier you will be and how much better you will fell about yourself!!!!
Its good to talk about it...but try not to dwell on it!! ; - )
We are all here for each other...and we will all support each other through all of this!!!
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