Terrified!!
You are not nuts. My date is the 9th and it seems like it's been an emotional roller coaster ever since my pre-op visit. I go from terrified to really excited. I went and paid for the hostpital and everything last Friday and was so scared I thought I wanted to back out. There is a post on another forum about fear that helped calm me somewhat: http://vsgfaq.com/forums//index.php?showtopic=19
It also helps me to read about everyone's wonderful success when I get all freakey.
I will remember you in my prayers this week and be sending tons of good vibes your way. Be sure and let me know how you are doing as soon as you feel up to it.
I can understand you being terrified. My date is not until February 8th, and I am loosing my mind already. I continue to pray.... It is difficult because my friend (who is a size 4, wet on a good day ) continue to tell me to do it NATURAL, as if I have not tried every diet possible. But try to relax and know that GOD is good all the time and he did not bring you this far to leave you.....Who is your dr and where are you? I am in Cali and my dr is Dr. Aceves. I was not approved thru insurance, so I will be a self pay...
I had to go thru everyone telling me to just run it off and drink water, LOL! Like i havent been on every diet on earth. They can complain because they are all small. I just ignore everybody and do what is right for me. I am doing better today and trust me god is the only thing keeping me sane right now! I am in ft bragg, nc. My doctor is jason hiles. I wonder why your insurance didnt pay, I am covered. I couldnt imagine having to pay, that must be hard for you. I hope everything works out ok.