I think I am guilty of not posting because I am scared of failing. I am so scared that I am going to be the fat ugly person I was once before. I do NOT want to be that person. I am in desperate need of help, words of wisdom, words of encouragement. Words to tell me to get BACK to the gym and start working out! I need to be told what to do to help me, because obviously I can not do it on my own. I am slowing gaining the weight back and I don't want to, in the same time, eating, I tend to forget all my worries while eating and the minute I am done eating the GUILT comes sliding in. I want so bad to choose healthy foods and find it harder to grab an apple rather than some chips or cookies.....I need the STRENGTH right now to get this back in to order.

Guess I am late.....I want to post more but forget more often than not.... My original weight was 267, I got down to 144 but was very sick. I ended up have an obstruction and had to have emergency surgery in October. 2 and a half feet of my small intestine was being strangled by scar tissue. This has since been resolved. I have since gained and now I am struggling with 164-168. I want to get down to 150 and will be successful and happy with that. I am fighting the erge to eat the foods we are supposed to avoid. I am having issues with my sugar levels and have an appointment to see a diabetic doctor. I forget what the name of the department is. My sugars rise to 200 and then drip within 15 minutes to 40 and it makes me very ill. Some of the side effects are craving anything with sugar. You get the shakes really bad and until you increase your levels you feel so sick and weak. I bought glucose pills *sugar pills* to take when this happens instead of eating something high in sugar. I have 18 pounds to lose and to stay with that weight. I have a YMCA membership, I just need to make it to the Y. If some of you wouldn't mind giving me some encouraging words I would much appriciate them. Thanks to all and good luck with everything! Love, Laura

Thanks Holly

I can't imagine what you've been going through- but I am so proud of you for breaking old habits!!!!! If you you were ever going to- that would have been the time- and you made it- you didn't break!!! You've stuck to your new habits- good for you!!! Wow- you've shown there's hope for us all!!!! Plus with all that driving and the temptation of fast food- that's amazing. Isn't it pathetic the limited fast food healthy choices we have? I jus****ched Super Size Me and I don't think I'll ever feed the kids a McDonald's Chicken Nugget again. I'll have to try a fiesta style burrito next time I'm stuck out- I haven't had that one yet. I am so proud of you... Holly

Not sure about the age- I'm 40 and I think that's a little early- I just had to get mine done cuz of all the crappy blood test results, the lost height- which was bs, the sudden cavities and the tailbone stuff. So I don't have an answer for you other than- you can wait awhile!!! Holly