Thanks for the prayers Holly!! I will definitely keep you guys posted. I went in for to give blood this morning to check my albumin levels....and I am waiting to be scheduled for the cardigram......

Beth - I lost fairly quickly last summer and spent too much $$$ on clothes. I can't wear anything this summer that I wore last. I think my weight is pretty stable right now and my body won't let me go below 120. That's good for me. I don't know what I would do if I kept losing. Take that up w/ your surgeon or your NUT, maybe a simple change of diet would do the trick. Good luck to you,

Holly - I notice a lb here or more makes my hips look large. I can't believe what a difference a few lbs can make to your body. Or is just in our heads? I know the times I've gotten on that scale and it's not what I want (even if it's over by just a pound) I feel dissapointed in myelf. I think we're so hard on ourselves because of everything we've had to go through.

Hey there everyone....It's been a long time! I hope everyone is well. I do pop out here every once in a while to see how everyone is doing. It has been a very long time since I have been out on the boards. I am just so busy with work, it is incredibly hard for me to get online. I guess that I am settling down and realizing that 105 just might be the weight were I remain. I go up to 108 over the weekend, but by Wednesday's I am back down to 105. I am still fitting size 0/1's and some 2's, if I am lucky. Clothes shopping is absolutely no fun anymore because I don't like to wear juniors or kids clothes. I want professional business clothes in my size. I have a lot of clothes that I just need to get altered. I just fear as soon as I do I will gain weight and then have to let them out, etc. Don't get me wrong, at this point, I do want to gain weight. I need to gain about 10-15 lbs to look healthier. I have to eat very often. I went to the dr office and they did a REM study and my metabolism is extremely high. I have to eat 1725 calories a day just to maintain 103 (that was almost a month ago). I eat often and small meals. The dietician wants me to get more protein in. I try, I really do. With work it is hard to journal. I was never very good at that anyway. I can pretty much eat whatever I want in moderation. I do not do well with sweets though. They make me extremely exhausted and just an overall sluggish feeling. So I try to not ever allow these. I feel best when I just resist and don't have them, but periodically I give into my desires. Then I say never again. Oh well, I guess we all know how that goes. We are going on a Hawaiin cruise in late Aug early Sept. I am hoping to build up some endurance to be able to do lots of fun excursions. I am very week in my upper arms now, so I have got to get to the gym and get with it. I swim in the pool but I just don't feel that giving me the strength or energy I will need. Well, I hope everyone is doing weel. I am still feeling extremely happy about my choice to have this surgery and if I had it to do over again, I would definitely do it. Hugs, Lindy

OK- now I understand!!! I think my pattern may be almost the same as yours but I drop the 3 pounds right before I get it. Well, atleast on one side anyway... My every other month period doesn't seem to be as regulated as the other- it takes WAY longer and I gain more. Goofy huh? That's one of the reasons I started tracking. Holly