Monday Morning Weigh Ins

Here are my stinking stats: HW 327 SW 322 LW 159 CW 161.8 Up again.....

Good morning all! I haven't checked in for the past few weeks and of course I forgot to weigh myself this morning - but I've been teetering between 145-147 - last week was passover and I ate too much...the scale was at 147 the whole week - but I went to the gym last night and I feel I'm now back on track. My SW was 272. I'm having trouble psychologically dealing with my new pouch (i know it's not new anymore but...) and the fact that I want to eat more than I can. I find it very frustrating. Am I the only one experiencing this? I'm happy I lost weight and that's what I wanted but i have been very frustrated as of late that I do not have any room to snack and when I do (force the issue) it just comes up. I guess I need to discuss this with my shrink! I would appreciate any feedback on how you guys might be handling this. The cravings have all come back! Have a great week everyone. Beth

I know how you feel, Beth...about the whole psychological thing. Sometimes just analyzing bit by bit what I have permanently done to myself, whether good or bad, freaks me out a little. I start worrying about the future in terms of my continued health...will I start having calcium issues later and break bones or lose my teeth? That kind of thing. I worry about the weight coming back, as well, but not as much as the vitamin and mineral problems. I can eat anything I choose to, just not in large amounts. I can't eat the volume that I used to and that's fine with me. I do tend to graze at times. But, I still try to stick to the sf or low sugar rules whenever I can...I figure that every bit helps. I rarely dump anymore, but when I do, it's on strange items like apples? I follow Melting Mama's blog religiously...I just adore her. Anyway, she's over 4 years out and still struggling everyday to eat right and move her butt. I think that she is gorgeous right where she's at, but she isn't happy here and is technically overweight by about 20-30 pounds. She still needs plastics. She has many medical issues caused by RNY surgery effects. She's doing the best that she can, and I think that in the end that's really all any of us can do. Beth (MM) shows me everyday that our struggle and need to control this stuff mentally and physically will NEVER end. We are constantly in a futile attempt to fix this "obesity" that we have...but I don't think that we can. We can only deal with it and treat it. Perhaps your counselor can help you sort out your individual issues and needs better than I could...sure couldn't hurt! I just wanted you to know that many, if not most, of us struggle with one issue or another so you aren't alone in this. Oh, and most of my pre-op cravings have come back, too. The weird thing is that they just don't taste the same...one bite and I don't even want them anymore. ~Suz

Steph- been wanting to ask you- how was OA? Did it help at all? SW- 250 LOWEST W- 126 CURRENT- 140 Yes- I have gained 14 pounds- it's do or die around here. I hate to be the one out here that gains all the weight back... My clothes aren't fitting and I'm really struggling. I'm going to change to an addictions therapist and see if that helps. I've also been thinking about seeing a nut- has that helped anyone? I'd like to say it's steroids, monthly or anything- but the truth is I am totally back to old habits and I have eaten these calories. I've tried eliminating things from the house- but I just find something else to eat. I WILL be down next week and checking in weekly!!! Good-luck everyone- Holly

Holly- I am sorry to hear about the gains lately. Sounds like you are being proactice, though. I really know what you are saying. My Dh and I were just talking about this tonight. I had half a Hershey bar today, and I ate two poptarts this weekend. Probably doesn't sound too horrible, but I am sure you get what I am saying... letting those old food addictions start to creep in on you, letting the calories start to creep up. It just starts with a bite, and the next thing you know, WHAM! Good luck getting back on track. You can do it! Belle

Hey Holly: The OA has not really helped me yet...but I keep going back cause they tell me it works if you work the plan and I have just not been committed. I am right there with you...my lowest weight was 149 and I was 159 yesterday at my therapist office...so its do or die here too for me. And I too know that I earned each and everyone of the pounds that I gained back...but I will did do liquids for 4 days when I got down to 149 and as soon as I started back to eating I slowly bounced back up to 159(at the therapist office) to 162(on my home scale this morning). Getting back to basics sounds so simple but it really is not...once you start making those bad eating decisions, it is hard to stop. But we can and will do this!! Thanks for posting this and letting me know I am not alone in this struggling to maintain. The grazing is what is my down fall and I have got to reel it back in.

Holly, I know it is a struggle. I struggle every day to make the best choices that I can. Exercising isn't the problem. It is the call of those old bad habits. You have made a huge turnaround by dealing with it. I would love to hear what the nutritionist says. The nutritionist I dealt with just really didn't seem to be with the whole gastric bypass thing although she is employed to be by the hospital and doctor. You know how you can just tell when someone doesn't believe what they are telling you! I did a reality check this last week of my food consumption. I have gone back to the basics and am monitoring what I take in. I need to get to goal and I only have 9 months to lose this last 54 pounds. My doc has lowered my goal weight. He tells me that the two year window to lose is crucial. I haven't been losing lately and have been gaining and losing the same 5 pounds for several months. My body fat is way down and my sizes are still dropping but I need to lose the weight too. I worry that I am really comfortable where I am....maybe too comfortable. I do recognize that I physically and mentally feel better all the time but if I am minus any unnecessary carbs (you know the junk like crackers) then I am at my peak in every way. The food does make a difference. Accountability is crucial. I am certain of it. So for me it is protein first, no bad carbs, lots of water, exercise and NO snacking. We can do this!!! Hugs, Katy

Good Monday Morning My January Lovelies! Awww, Steph...that darn scale is not being very nice to you. It's probably residual lemon creme cookies? You must banish them!! lol. It'll move in the right direction for you this week...I just know it. Surgery/High: 251.5 Last Monday: 143.0 Today: 143.8 Gain/loss: +0.8 (grrr...up, but not by much) That time...again. I can't stand this whole regular cycle thing. I only have three good weeks out of every month now...I used to go 5-7 weeks between cycles. This regularity would be great if I was actually trying to have more kids..but we're not, so it's just downright annoying. Oh, it is comes at really inopportune times, too...yesterday was our 16th wedding anniversary. I was irritated and cranky and bloated...no fun :o(. The week is looking up from here, though. Have a great one, ladies! ~Suz

Suz- I am so with you where hating normal cycles are concerned! I spent 6 of the last 8 years pregnant or nursing, plus I had irregular cycles anyway, so seriously, maybe 12 periods in all of "the fat years". I absolutely hate having regular cycles. What an inconvenience. Not to mention the fact that my appetite goes into major overdrive for 3 days before, then I stall on my weight, or even balloon up during, and then spend a week regaining the ground I lost! I feel like I have about 10 days of real weightloss potential out of the whole dang month!!! I have been seeing adds for a pill that you only have one period every 3 months, and I am definitely going to be asking about it at my annual this summer.

OMG!! The cravings around the week of my period are out of control!! I literally ate an entire bag of dark chocolate Lindt truffles and an entire bag of Hershey's Bliss dark chocolates over the course of 6 days! I am shocked that I didn't gain 50 pounds...it sure felt like I ate enough to. But, so far...only 0.8...but we'll see how that pans out for the rest of the week . I have tried every pill out there pre-op to control super heavy periods and soon all they did was cause me to have a never ending lighter period. I am in no hurry to give that a go again! Let me know if it works for you and perhaps I'll get brave enough to try it again ;o).