Prayer Request

Hi all: I would like to ask for some special prayer...I have fallen off the wagon so hard these last two days and I am so afraid that my old eating habits are going to take over. I am so tempted lately by the wrong things...and is not food...its candy...I was at an hr conference this week and the vendors had all kinds of goodies out..the first day I was fine, the second day I had to have the gumballs...and then last night...It was down hill, I ate chocolate and lots of it...so much that I am embrassed to say what I ate....and I had more sugar filled gum and butter mints and peppermint durning the day....And I did not dump at all which is scary as crap. I keep telling my self that today is a new day but I said that Thursday and Friday too and my eating got worse and worse. Thanks in advance for your prayers. Obviously I am still an addict and need more help than I knew. The first 8 months were a breeze but now the battle begins..the honey moon is over an I need to get in control of it all.

Stephanie, you and me both... I will pray for you.

Thanks Cathryn!! I had a much better eating day yesterday and today!

I feel you .. I ate almost a whole cookie from Starbucks and feel SO guilty about it. I will pray for you and for all of us to have strength to continue to work this gift we have been given.

Thanks Lea....Prayer makes a big difference in everything and it has made a big difference the last two days for me. Thanks again

Prayers coming your way Stephanie... BUT I really think your being to hard on yourself. Post a before and current picture of yourself around your kitchen... I carry one in my purse and whenever Im tempted I look at my before picture, it helps... Makes me realize i dont want to go back. EVER! also keep in mind what you ate before surgery... its not even comparable. Today is a new day... Your doing great!!! Dont forget that! My PA says, a few bad days arent going to predict your life change... Everyone is going to have them. Keep positive... Dont deprive yourself totally, it will set you up to fail. Just say to yourself. "before surgery I had 10, today Im going to have 3"... That's how I justify things and so far its worked for me! Have a wonderful weekend. Stacey

Good advice Stacey!! Thanks for your prayers and bringing me back to reality!! U are so right in that a few bad days will not predict how my journey goes from here on out. Thanks again. Steph

Praying for you Stephanie! Don't let the discouragement take hold. A little bit of a paraphrase from Philippians 3, "Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal..." Press on Stephanie! You can do this. Margaret

Thanks Margaet!! I will press forward to my goal!! That is a perfect scripture for this situation!

Ah, Steph...don't let yourself get discouraged! I know that it feels like you may be starting down a slippery slope of bad choices, but you do have the ability and the courage to begin again! It has been difficult for me lately to keep a lid on what and how much I eat of "off limits" items. I just have to contiually try to make the best choices possible...notice I didn't say the "right or perfect" choices? We can only do the best we can do. I know that you are asking for prayers, and I can respect that request. But, being that I am not a praying type of girl, what I can offer right now is a gentle kick in the arse and some positive thoughts being sent your way. My only humble advice to you, from one addict to another , would be to start limiting the "crappy" choices...instead of trying to control yourself from completely abstaining from butter mints...make a conscious choice to only have 5 instead of 10 or 15. Then, in a couple of days, drop that down to 3, and so on. Eventually, you will be weaned off of your trigger foods again. Try to replace those with something that you can have. We can not live a life of deprevation until we die...that's not the purpose of this surgery. We are supposed to learn how to choose wisely and set limits...with the goal of living a normal, healthy life with regard to food. You know....that irritating "everything in moderation" thing! WE CAN DO THIS!! Especially if we all stick together and support one another ! Little steps, Stephanie...they all add up. ~Suz