Dealing with stress and......(kinda long)

I needed a place to vent so here i am! At this point i am down 49 pounds and i am sooooo happy about that. I am under alot of stress and pressure between dealing with my ex and my job. Such is life and it happens. We all have crap to deal with. I kinda feel like im sabatoging myself to a point. I go through periods that i stay motivated with my weight loss and then i have periods where i am so fed up with dealing with BS that i dont take the time to take care of me. I have really thought about this and i ask myself why am i doing this to myself? For the past few days i am not getting enough protein in but i am getting my water. I am not exercising like i should. I do work with children and i do play games and run around with them... but i know its not enough. I just don't know how to get myself out of this rut! My DH is so supportive and is always there for me but.... i just feel like i dont care but on the other i do! I am soooooo confused! Has anyone else felt like this or has or is going through this? The biggest issue i have is dealing with my ex. We have two beautiful children together and they are my pride and joy. They are living with their dad and have been for a few years. I have so much guilt for letting him take them. He was physically, mentally and verbally abusive to me and knocked me down to nothing. He got them because i was too afraid to go against him. My daughters want to be with me and he is not letting it happen. I have been in court for two years trying to get them back. I finally got a lawyer... and we are going back to court in the end of May. My ex lies to our kids and tries to make me look like a monster. I hate that he does all these horrible things and tries to switch everything around on me. I know i need to get back on track. I want to get back on track. I just dont know why i am not doing it. Thanks for letting me vent..... I needed this! If anyone has any advice..... i am all ears. Christine

i totally understand. i am under a lot of stress also ...i started nursing school less than 2 weeks after surgery. i have these moments where i think i am blowing it and need to get back on track. it isnt easy, but stick with it. we knew from the beginning that this wasnt going to be easy, but like everything else we will make it. sorry no advice because i feel the same way you do a lot of the time, but i wish you well.

Hey there! Vent anytime! I can't say that I've been where you are, but I can imagine what you're going through. I can't imagine how hard it is not having your kids with you. Stay positive and do what you need to do to get your kids back. 50 lbs is awesome btw! It's only been 3 months. You should be very proud. Just remember to drink and try to get your protein in. I do admit on the days that I'm more stressed than usual I don't make a point to get my protein or water it. Just keep trying!

Christina- I have gone through periods like this where I know I am not doing everything I need to do because I get overwhelmed. Hang in there! You are doing great, and you will get out of this rut. Just remember that you are no good to anyone else if you don't put yourself, physically and mentally, first. The people that love you deserve that from you! (Or atleast that is what I tell myself!) Good job on the 49 pounds! Belle

I went through a funk myself and I am not dealing with a quarter of what you are. I tried the plateau diet, it is on a post in the january board, and got back in the swing of things. I do sometime feel like if I don't do everything perfect why try. It is a bad habit for me to break. I am working on it and I have to remind myself like 10 times a day that I can't do it all and certain things are out of my control. I just try the best I can to take care of the things I can. You should try by doing something nice just for yourself not just weightloss related. Treat yourself to something or take time to do something that you want. Good luck!

Christine - we all need to vent. I can identify a bit with you and the ex situation. My husband's ex has always tried to prevent him from having a relationship with his children. Despite two of them having to come live with us - she still tries to make the children think that he is not a good guy. Which of course is far from the truth. We just try to stay positive and not lower ourselves to her level. We know that as the kids get older they will discover the "truth" for themselves. We believe you reap what you sow and that she will get the worse end of the deal in the end. Keep fighting to get custody if that is what is best for the girls and keep being positive for their sake!

Thank you all for your support. I would have replied sooner but i have been having issues with my cable line..... You guys are all so supportive. Thank you again! huggggggggggs Christine