really struggling.............

I am 8 days post op. Physically, I am doing fine. Mentally, I am struggling. I really miss food. I thought I was doing well, but I think I have been doing things wrong. I have a call into the nutritionist to get things clarified. I have been drinking 64 oz of water in addition to my liquid protein sources, and now I think that the protein sources count towards that total. There are times that I am hungry, but I think its head hunger. I was so hungry last night that I couldnt sleep. I ate a bite of my son's mac and cheese and it went down fine. Didnt make me sick or anything. So I guess that means I wont be one who dumps. I want this to succeed for me so bad, but I am afraid that I have gotten off on the wrong foot. Sorry if I am wining. Thanks for letting me share. Jen

Hi Jen - Are you still on liquids only? If the protein liquid counts toward you 64 oz, than your doing great w/ liquid - at least your not dehydrated. They say you can't get enough water. I'm 10 days out and I can only get in about 32 oz of jus****er. I do also drink broth, hot chocolate, cream soup and protein drinks. I'm also allowed pureed food. It just took me a 1/2 hour to eat 1 scrambled egg and 1 tbps of farina mixed w/ 1 tbsp of baby peaches. Ask your doctor when you can start pureed foods - once you start those you fill full real fast and stay full for awhile.

Jennifer, Please don't beat yourself up! Heck holding down Mac & Cheese, that is a feat!! From what I read the first month is the hardest. I think your feelings are normal. But certainly bathe yourself in support from others that are going through this also. I had my surgery just 2 days after you and people keep asking me if I mourn food. My answer is "NO!!" Food was my enemy for so long I feel like this was the necessary step to kick it over the battleline. But it will still be a battle and I believe it will get easier and easier to defeat and overcome, but it will take time. Since I'm newbie also my suggestions may be empty but perhaps when you are struggling with the hunger, take a walk, read a book, I pray, go onto the computer and look at all the before and afters, ask my kids if they want to play a game, you get me point. I will pray about for you and please know that we all have/will struggle. Tomorrow is a new day! Take care and God Bless! Adrianne

If you get out of step one time, it's ok. I am 5 weeks out and I still can't eat. I keep trying, but it's not working. I am having trouble drinking my liquids too. You are doing great. Give your insides time to heal, that is the reason for no food for awhile. It does get better. I was sipping water before now I can drink water, or whatever I chose to drink. I suffered from head hunger too. Try drinking some V8 juice, I found that to be filling and I didn't suffer too bad at night when I really got hungry. Good luck, each day will be better. Diane

hang in there Jen, You are doing well!!!!! I am one day ahead of you and was feeling the same way a few days ago, really missing normal food and terrrible head hunger but every day gets a bit better so just take a day at a time and you´ll be fine. This site is a great support to us all so if you need to share your feelings we will be here for you. Keep your chin up. best wishes milania x