Feeling Scared

I'm in the same boat as everyone else... I got approved after my first letter too! my surgery date is Jan 9 for lap RNY. I'm currently at a BMI of like 39 but I qualify because I have high blood pressure... I sometimes think I don't deserve the surgery or I don't need it... I think that if I just applied myself and started eating right and working out I could lose the weight on my own, but in the back of my mind, I know I won't. I can identify with seeing other people who are larger than me and probably need the surgery more... I'm also scared of failing... of either eating too fast, or the wrong things, etc etc etc.... scared of gaining the weight back in a few years... scared of doing anything wrong... I'm curious what I'm gonna look like, feel like... hoping that i'm happy with my decision and hoping that I don't have any major post surgery problems like anemia or malnutrition or something like that... I'm also still young and want to have kids eventually and hope the surgery doesn't interfere with that dream.... I'm worried about having loose skin after losing weight and having to then deal with making a decision maybe to have plastic surgery... there is so much to think about and both look forward to but many things I am apprehensive about also... sometimes I second guess my decision to have the surgery which I have heard is normal.... I'm scared of something going wrong in the OR while I'm in there... I don't want to end up having open surgery instead of laproscopic... and I noticed others posting about quitting smoking... here's a tip... I've been bad and had a cigarette here or there, but I used to be a half a pack a day smoker for 5+ years and I quit by reading a book... seriously... quit cold turkey for a few months... started again, and now I've quit again... I think if I had followed all of the instructions in the book exactly I wouldn't have started back up again, but I fell so much better now that I'm not smoking... try reading this book!! I highly recomment it... it's called simply "The Easyway to Stop Smoking" the author is Allen Carr... he's from England or something and my best friend special ordered it from our local Hasting's then i read bits and pieces, liked it, and bought my own copy... I bought one for another friend as well... I told my doctor about it too.... you can find it on Amazon... he also wrote and easyway to lose weight which I used and lost about 20 pounds, but that one just didn't stick for some reason - oh well, I found WLS now... but the stop smoking book worked for me.... I hope it works for you too!

Thanks for the book info! I quit cold turkey a couple months ago and haven't had an issue. I still miss it, but I want to be healthy and I want to do everything I can to make this surgery go well. I just said "d@mn non -smoking" because I have been eating more since I quit.

Honey, it doesn't matter if it took you 5 days or 5 years, this is the brass ring! Grab it and celebrate! I myself waited 5 yrs and went through a lot of ups and downs and I couldn't be happier for you. Your story is like the story of the people who win the lottery! We all wish for it but few of us get it. That doesn't mean you don't have the right to be happy for yourself. Think of this as a gift that you are giving yourself and your family. You will be happier and healthier and better able to live your life the way God intended. There will be days when you feel scared, or blue or anxious. We all go through that. But on the other side you will look back on this and just be greatful that you had this opportunity. Congratulations! Janet W [email protected]