Feeling Scared

I am scared that after all of the times I tried to lose that somehow I will mess this up too. I feel guilty that I had no problem getting the approval, 5 days, and it seems like it is too good to be true. I didn't have to go through everything like everyone else that I have heard about and I feel like I just don't deserve this. I am just not feeling very optimistic right now. My surgery date is the 29th of January. Has anyone felt like this?

Yep, me . . . right here!! I know exactly how you feel. I was approved within 2 weeks of submitting my approval and that was only because of the Thanksgiving holiday delay. I have heard many a story about denials, appeals, etc. I was so nervous. When I got that phone call that I was approved on the first letter, I about passed out. I really couldn't believe it came so easy that it still almost doesn't seem real to me. I did have to do a lot to meet insurance requirements though. BUT, we shouldn't feel guilty - we should feel blessed and we should pray for others who need our support and are going thru their approval processes. I'm sorry, I had to laugh when I read the first line of your post. I think we all have tried and failed at dieting otherwise we wouldn't be in the cir****tances were are in now. You have received a gift of a second chance. Don't find it hard that finally something related to weight loss has gone your way. Embrace this opportunity and continue to communicate with us. We will help see you thru this and keep you in line if you need it. Lord knows I'll need it!

Yes - me, too! I started the this process (after years of dieting) in mid-October, and have a January 11 date - wow! I'm scared silly that I'll screw this up, but take great comfort in the success stories of others. If they can do it, maybe I can, too! And, at the moment, I'm driving myself crazy, wondering if I'm making the right choice in lap-band (I think so, but...) Anyway - second chances are wonderful, and with a lot of work and a little luck, we'll all be much healthier by this time next year!

Oh trust me I feel the same way. I was approved in 13 days. I know people that are still going thru the appeal process. I started this whole wls by attending a seminar in July of this year and It took me 2 months before I decided to contact the surgeon's office. From my consultation it took 3 months from start to a date. It all happned so quick. When I am out and about I see people that are much larger than I am and I feel guilty that they need this surgery more than I do. I sometimes come home and feel like why me and not them. It is hard to explain but I have always thought my mission in life was to help others and this makes feel selfish.

that is so weird alice... i started my wls journey in july also...and we have the same date for surgery. Such a close time frame! My sister was the one who got me to start in July. She was the one *****ally wanted to have gastric bypass, and we both went through steps together. Now, she has decided not to go through with the bypass, and it is me getting the surgery done, but she is going to be there at the hospital for my support. I am so excited to get it done, and to think, it was my sis who got me to start the process!!!

Ok this is even more wierd. My co-worker Angela got me started on this her doctor signed her up for the seminar and I overheard her telling our boss and I asked if I could go as her guest to learn what it was all about. She and I have been going thru this together I jumped ahead of her and got my date first she is scheduled for January 30th same doctor same hospital. What do you think of that?

Thanks everyone. I read the replies and I cried because I felt happy I am not alone. I think I should look at it as a blessing and let go of the worrying. I read somewhere that worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but you don't get anywhere.

Yes G -- this is truly a blessing. To have the insurance or money to do this is truly a blessing. I'm excited about a lot this coming year and the surgey date of Jan 18th is coming fast. Its going to be here before I know it.

In some ways I feel like insurance was the worst part of this entire thing. I was denied twice and finally approved. It was a hard thing, but there a lot of people that didn't have to go through that. But does that make me anymore deserving to have WLS? No. Insurance is insurance. That has nothing to do with your desire for the surgery or fate's karmic revenge on you. That is just one part of a long journey. Just learn all you can, listen to your doctor and work hard. Those are what is going to make you successful in the end. Jen

I feel exactly the same way. I got my approval in a week. My surgeon doesn't schedule the surgery without approval. They docs office called me within 5 days to let me know I got approved and to give me my surgery date. I feel extra guiltly since I have gained weight (d@mn being non-smoking!). My surgery is on Jan 22nd and it's all I can think about. I keep thinking something will happen and they'll take away my approval or something like that. Paranoia (sp?) anyone? You definitely aren't alone!