My last post was about a year ago mentioning i was considering a revision. im still only 4ft 9, but my weight has gone from 190 down to about 170. Its a daily struggle. i really thought that having surgery would be an easy fix.i go to the gym, and walk with my kids. i try to stay active and be aware of everything i put in my mouth.  I am not 100% compliant everyday, i snack and drink soda. i also drink 5 hour energys and im sure theyre somehow bad for me...

my bmi is about 35 and i count my blessing everyday that its not stil 51. i see that ive came a long way, but still get down in the dumps that im not at my ideal weight but the truth is im in my mid 30's and have had 3 children, its ok to be a size 14. not everyone is meant to fit into a size 6 cookie cutter image. im healthy and my family is happy thats whats truely important. with that being said i am seeing a revision specialist to see if he thinks theres any options for me. im not even sure my insurance will cover it but its worth my 20dollar co-pay to find out. if it doesnt hapen thats ok too but just think I want to see my options. at the end of the day i like to know i explored all my options.

Anyways im just checking in... hope everyone is well.

me too....I was curious who was still here. I also need all the support that I can get at this point, I havent gained a ton but I have gained a few pounds and it makes me a bit depressed after all the hard work and sacrifice that we have all put into this. Well Welcome back nice to see you.
 Steph

Hi everyone... after a long time away, I decided to come back and see who's still here.

I'm trying to get back on track and can use all the support I can get. Hope to see some familiar faces around here.

Hugs from Holland,
V

I remember you too!!!  Welcome back!  The recovery gets way better once those nasty drains are removed :)

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:)

Jaci, I was once a very active member of the site--now I lurk on rare occasion (1-2 x per year), but I always read the Sugiversary posts.

You are the name I always look for--- you are so much more together than I was at your age.  I always read what you write and shake my head at how clear you express yourself and how completely feaking smart you are. I didn't even begin to entertain these life questions that you think abput until my 40s!  You are not afraid to confront the big, bleak issues that have made us all---the dreaded word: fat. I am always in awe and amazed at how astute you are .  It sounds too cheesy to say 'courageous', but there you are---. Honestly, you are just unbelievable----

I hope you are well.  You will be in such a different place in your 30s and 40s because of these struggles/thoughts now, Jaci.
Good luck to you----C