Hi Everyone!

 

Remember me?  A year ago at this time I was the girl who was holding steady with her weight.  Sure, that girl had some personal issues…but who doesn’t?  The one thing that was going okay was that I knew I would start off the New Year not having to worry too much, for the first time ever, about losing weight.  I was holding at around 165…a comfortable weight for my 5’10” frame.  162 was my lowest weight but I was fine with 165.  I wore short shirts that showed my butt and tight dresses.  I tossed all my old sweats and, even if I had to run a quick errand, I put on full make-up and did my hair.  I stood tall.

 

Who am I now?  I am a terrified shell of myself from a year ago.  I am a girl who is tipping the scales at, am I actually admitting this? ...178!  I am ***16*** lbs up from my lowest weight.  I am only ***6*** lbs away from the weight I was in college when I called myself a “fat pig”.  A year ago, I NEVER thought I would get near to that weight again.

 

Today I sit here in a turtleneck sweater and a scarf.  Yes, a scarf.  I am always cold, it is true…but I feel like the scarf (it is long, black and bulky) hides me.  I have reverted to wearing a sweater again…all the time.  My dresses, even the ones I bought for winter, are relegated to the back of the closet.  I am thick-waisted and frumpy.  I don’t ever do my hair and I almost never bother to put on make-up.  At home, I live in sweatpants and an over-sized LL Bean flannel.  The flannel is a men’s Large.  Men’s medium used to be oversized on me.  Not anymore.  I am barely squeezing into my size 10 jeans.  My face is round and I always look tired.  I am miserable.

 

There are a lot of reasons for reverting to old, BAD habits.  Life, for one (being a Mom  - practically a single one – being a full-time employee, having debt and money worries…stress, stress and more stress).  But I think one of the biggest reasons is…I stopped coming to this board.  I did not realize until recently how much this board made me accountable (even though I did not post to Kay and April’s Accountability post often enough!).

 

So I am on a mission.  I implore everyone to come back to the board!  If you are afraid to come back because you have gained and are embarrassed, don’t be!  That is what we are here for.  I think we are ALL struggling…none of us are alone!  If you are too busy to come to the board, try to find time if you can.  My life is crazy and hectic but, if my sisters and brothers make the effort, so will I!  If you just don’t want to be here because you feel you have moved on, please reconsider.  Remember what it was like when you DID need us!  Well, I need you back!!  Finally, if you DO read this board and are a lurker…COME OUT OF LURKERDOM!  And just don’t say you will…do it!

 

I am going to send an email to everyone that I have an email address for and implore you all to come back!  I need my wonderful support system back!  Don’t you?  If so…THEN JOIN ME!!!!

 

All my love and hugs…and lots of pathetic begging!!

 

Jersey Mom

Hi Jersey, You are a hard one to get ahold of..... Did you leave me off the list? I metion through facebook I would do it but if you forgot that is ok.....How are your plans for Niagara coming along? I will be in Ny city again on Saturday the 13th but just for the day! I really hope I eventually get to meet you!
Enjoy your holiday!
Love Chris

Hey Everyone:

I sent a PM to everyone who expressed interest in doing the Holiday Card Exchange (sadly, it is a small list this year).  I put "2009" on most of the messages...I am a year ahead of myself - whoops!!

I hope you all have a wonderful, wonderful holiday!!

Love and hugs,
Jersey

What do I need to do???

I'd love to interact more often with this family...

Alex

Hey Rhonda!!!

Thank you very much!!!

Alex