Hello You Lovelies!

I have missed you all very much. I pop in and lurk some... but rarely have time to really post anything. I'm on OH all the time and have found a second home at the WLS in 20s Board... this of course, being the first one. I had my tummy tuck last June... coincidencely (did I even spell that right) I think that's when I kinda fell off the face of the Jan Board. I was incredibly unhappy with my results. Yes, I'm flat in front, but the way my body was built and all the fat, tissue, etc... my surgeon could only do so much with the sides... so I've had to adjust from the mental image of complete flatness and beauty to that of a normal person. That's just it, I'm normal... I don't think anyone would be able to tell I'd lost 190 pounds if I hadn't told them with how my plastics turned out. Yes, I'm still unhappy... but I've learned how to dress and accept it. One day I'll have the cash to fix my sides... On the life front... I'm still in school, Tommy and I are no longer together. He broke it off shortly after my plastics and just got married to his high school crush in April. I've been living life... going out, spending quality time with those that actually care and totally learning just what is important in life and what isn't. I've even added pink in my hair! Check out my profile for photos I have gained some weight back... I'm getting back on track. There have been some stressful phases in my life and I resorted to eating to comfort me. I know what to do to get back on track, its just physically doing it. Miss you all!

JACI, So happy you are doing well and look very happy in your pictures....sorry about Tommy I am sure there is the most awesome guy out there for you when your done having a blast being single (if ever) don't ru**** Be Blessed!!!!!!!! Tori

Oh I am in no way hurrying into another relationship; one was enough trouble!

Hello Jaci! So great to hear you are doing well. I will be getting some cosmetic surgery in 2009. I have wondered about how I will look after it is done. I liked myself fat. I like myself now, extra skin and all! I just wonder if I will look like I imagine in my mind I will look. AND will I like how I look however it turns out. There is a lot to this "Being normal". It all comes down to how do I really feel about me, not how I look or what I can do or have or money I make. If that is the final outcome, I will love the way I end up looking! I have always liked myself and who I am and that won't change. Sorry about you and Tommy. Congrats on moving on from Tommy. He was a great guy to have in your life at just the right time for you. YOU were the perfect woman to be in his life and he was blessed to have known you. After my divorce I met a man and he treated me wonderfully. I felt beautiful and sexy again. Our relationship only lasted about 9 months (he went back to his crazy ex girlfriend) but the time with him helped me feel good about me again. I will alway have a soft spot for him in my heart. My relationship with him helped me get ready and opened my heart so when I met my current husband I could see the good man he was and was ready to love again. Teresa

Ah, I wish I were as comfy with myself as you are with yourself! I was thrown into my plastics out of distress... my rashes were horrible and it was the only option to relieve my pain. You are also completely correct about Tommy. I am thankful for the time we were together... I learned alot about life with him. And in all truthfulness, definately not the husband for me. It has taken all this time for me to finally realize how incompatible we were... but yes... I'm ok with everything that's happened.

You look beautiful Jaci. Take your time dating again & that special someone will come along when your not looking. Hugs, Carly

Thanks Carly!! When do we get to see the engagement photos!?

Hi kiddo ... You look very pretty. Quit beating yourself up about your sides! Buckets ~ I could scare children if I lifted my shirt, my hangyy rasin belly - blaaahhhhh! Enjoy your youth, play the field, learn what you like and can't stand, don't settle for anything less than 100%

Jaci, Girl you are BEAUTIFUL! You need to understand that your beauty has nothing to do with you out side skin! You was BEAUTIFUL before your surgery and in time you will get rid of the skin! Just a tip...........make sure you drink your water (helps keep the skin tight), and walk 45min. to hour, each day (again it helps the skin), last but not least, work out 3 to 4 times a week. I know it is yuck to have to have to do but my surgery tells me it will help me with my skin and I have 35 -40 lbs of skin. Just remember YOU are Worth all you have worked for! Chin up, you have to find HAPPINESS in your self before you find it some where else! Love you Like a sister, Melissa