Jan 2008 update

Seems like everyone is doing an update as we approach our two year anniversary. Mine is next Saturday the 19th. As I sit here and look backIi am amazed at where I have ended up after those two years. I never would have dreamed that my life would have taken the path it has. I have lost the weight, and reached goal and then gone back up 30 pounds and am back down 15 pounds. I am striving for another five, (goal was to low) but it is one of those up and down that are normal for "normal" folks. Can you believe it, I can recognize myself as "normal" if there really is such a thing. But more amazing to me than the weight loss journey, is the journey of personal tragedy and growth. I have been a grandma Mom for the last year and a half. I have been told a dozen times not to count on my daughter living, walking and being able to live on her own. I have had my daughter die in my arms and bring her back. I have cried and screamed and cussed and everyother thing you can imagine. I have experienced extreme anger and stress and fear and pain and agony. I have lost my business and my finances are a total mess. But if things go according to plan, a week from today, my husband I will be a couple again and my daughter will be back in her own home careing for her own children. She can walk, a little, with a prothesis, and get around in a wheel chair when walking is too much. She is alive and well and has the potential to stay that way if she will just take care of herself. I have found myself to be a strong, viable person with self-confidence and abilities beyond my wildest dreams. I have found the person I buried under that 100+ pounds of fat. And i like her. But what is more surpriseing is so do other people. Hazel

WOW! What a journey you have had. And you came out the other end a stronger healthier person who is probably more self aware than you have ever been. I wish you a relaxing, stress free 2008!

Thank-you. You know what they say, "What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger." Hazel

You are a strong lady Hazel and you just keep on fighting for what you need/want. You've come so far and I believe there are good things ahead for you. Sending hugs, Ronna

Thank-you Ronna. This is my year to take care of me. That is my goal for 2008. :sezy:Hazel

"But if things go according to plan, a week from today, my husband I will be a couple again and my daughter will be back in her own home careing for her own children." This is my surgiversary hope for you also, Hazel. It's definitely time to take care of you. RobinNJ

Thank-you. It really is time. I thought I was going that way two years ago, it just goes to show that our plans are not always God's plans. But he has taken care of me. Hazel

You have been through so much, dear Hazel. Finally, you are being paid back for all your sacrifice. I think its wonderful how strong you as well as your faith is. Keep inspiring!

Thank-you. You have been an inspiration as well. Keep up the good work Hazel

Hazel: You are such an inspiration to me. Gosh, I ***** and moan about the simplest of things while you, who have had devastating tragedy in your life, live your life with grace. I am so sorry for all that you have been through. But I am so happy that you have come through it all! I wish the very best for you in 2008 and beyond! We should all be taking some life lessons from you, sister. You are amazing woman and I am proud to know you! All my love, Jersey Mom