Feeling Pathetic

First of all, please know that things are FINE and I have NO RIGHT to feel blue for any reason. My son is doing GREAT at his daycare...his health is good...my parents are visiting from Florida and all is well... That being said I am feeling SO DAMN PATHETIC! Ever since I graduated from college, I really have not had any friends. I had many in HS and was very lucky to have a great best friend growing up. But..we all drifted. And, seriously, I have no friends. I have great co-workers that I LOVE and I feel blessed about that. But...my husband and I do not have the opportunity to have other couples over for dinner, etc. My husband does not have friends, either! At least not in the US. So what a couple we make...my husband's close friends are in other countries and my best friend is in VA and my closest heart friends are YOU guys...spread out all over the country. Now...the fact that I am friendless (physically) does not really bother me...mostly. But I did scrounge up some people to invite to my son's birthday party this Saturday. Almost all of them initially accepted (something like 20 people). Alas, one by one they canceled...for a variety of reasons. Well, the final straw happened today. My only physical friend (who I have not seen since the night of my emergency surgery on Feb 6th...and who calls me her best friend...God knows why) just canceled. And now I am feeling like a little kid who is having a party and no one wants to come. I KNOW this is pathetic and irrational but that is how I feel anyhow. I never felt this way growing up and it SUCKS. Okay...you are all formally invited to my pity party. It IS my time of the month, by the way...so I am hoping that has something to do with my feelings right now. But I just feel like a pathetic loser who no one likes enough to come to my party!! I am done now. Thanks for listening!! Love you! JM

((((JM)))) Don't feel alone! Ever since we moved here 10 years ago I have not had many friends. When I worked I had co-worker friends but we didn't do anything outside of work. I have one friend that I get together with about once a month to go shopping and just hang out. My husband doesn't have friends outside of work either so we hang out together all the time..alone. He turns 50 in May and I was thinking of throwing him a party...and I've been trying to think of people to invite...there won't be a party because I can only think of 2 couples to invite and one couple probably would cancel just before the party or not show at all... How sad is that? We always joke around about winning the lottery. He said, if we win we'll charter a 747 and pick up all our friends and go to Europe. I said, we won't need a 747 we don't have that many friends. He says, we will if we win the lottery! Like you I concider everyone here my friend..but no one lives close! I made a great friend in Chris, Karyn, Ronna and Angela in Vegas... Though we haven't heard from Angela in forever! Maybe it's because it's so close to Christmas that everyone had to cancel. I'm sorry for you and your son. I know it's heart breaking. Just think once he starts school you'll be able to invite his friends from school to the party. phewwww I'm long winded this morning. I'm going shopping....by myself HUGS and lots of love, Anna

I will be there with bells on. I am not a picky eater and niether is my hubby! What are you doing for dinner? I wish I was closer and would come give you a hug right now! Hugs and love, Chris

Oh Sweetipie! I am so sorry but you know you DO have friends, unfortunately not close by. I'm here in cold cold Chicago but I'm your friend. And if you ever want to visit, my pull-out coach is all yours and you can bring JerseyKid and JerseyHubby too as I know they like big dogs. Don't forget you can always call me when you're feeling blue or when your not feeling blue. I'm here! Love you lots, Ronna

Just sending you lots of hugs!!!!! I don't think you're any different though, I don't have any close friends either. Maybe it's the age or something, I don't know!!!! I'd love to have a close friend again like I did in high school, but I'm not sure it's even possible anymore, lol. Most of the friends I do have now are just to party or go out. "couple" friends would really be great too wouldn't it? I only see that on tv... maybe they need a site for people not to hook up but to just find friends!!! LOL, they'd find a way to pervet that some way anyway wouldn't they??? Hugs and hugs and more hugs!!!! Renee

Hey Jerseymom, Just wanted to send you a BIG GIGANTIC HUG your way!!!!By the way, do you still go see Dr. Abkin once a year? I have an appointment the end of January to see him. I've got like 10 tubes of blood that needs to be drawn up,yuck!Just curious if anyone else sees the need to go? Take Care, Shannon

Shannon, I have my appt this week just had 8 tubs of blood drawn thursday ...... Tori

Hey Shannon! When is your appt. Mine is on Jan. 22nd. When is yours? I have to have 10 vials drawn again, too. It will be a yearly thing. I freaked out for a bit because he had dropped my insurance. Luckily, he picked them back up again! PHEW!! Hugs, JM

Wish I lived closer................ Tori

JERSEY, I was not on the boards friday - hope things worked out for you this weekend - hey maybe we can have a 1/2 year birthday for Jeresy Kid this summer. My brother and I are exactly 2 1/2 yrs apart to the day so it was fun to celebrate my 1/2 year birthday each year on his. Happy Monday! Rhonda