What the hell did this do to my (our?) bodies?

Okay yeah I'm pissed, nothing new right??? I really really have to wonder what the hell this surgery did to my body sometimes. I really really do. So, I was going to do that 5 day pouch test thing again, but then I'm like no, it's not healthy, the weight loss is pretty fake because it's liquid dieting, which everyone knows they do not work for real weight loss right? So okay, I said I'm going to be 'smart' and I'll do the 1200 cals a day and lose the rest of the weight slowly. So I gained a little this week or the number hung around the same, and I'm like no big deal, it's from the liquid diet and that's normal. So today my weight actually went up over 2 lbs and honestly I've really freaking had it. This is absolutely nuts. For my age, weight, height to maintain my current weight I'd have to eat 1758 calories ever day. Not even close. To maintain the goal weight of 138 lbs for my age, height, etc, it would be 1670. Now, I'm no where NEAR either calorie count and there is NO mother f**kin way I should be gaining weight. So much for doing things right huh? Apprently if you've had WLS you'll never be normal and if you want to maintain I guess you better drink all day long and if you're really lucky you can have some tuna and a couple hundred calories each day. But only if you're lucky!!! Sorry for venting but I'm really totally fit to be tied at the moment. This just blows my mind. I don't even know where to go from here or what to do. I did maintain before for mos... no problem, wasn't counting cals but I figured it had to be around 1200-1500 and I was very active. So I guess the honey moon period being over means I should cut that in half or more, LOL. What a bunch of crap. (by the way, when I figured out the maintaining calories I even went with the lowest activity level so that should be EXTREMELY low end!!!!) AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Whatever, I'm just done with this for now. I have finals all next week and this the last freakin thing I want to even think of. I don't really need any replies to this, I really just needed to vent. And really, what is there to say? Something somewhere is majorly messed up.

Renee, Sending big hugs your way. Take a couple of deep breaths and step away from the scale. Our bodies hold water and the amount of sodium we ingest can make our weight fluctuate 5 lbs. - YES 5 freaking lbs! For the next week, just try to eat lots of protein and concentrate on getting all of your water each day. Once finals are over, if you can, you might want to go see a dietician and have him/her help you figure all this out. If you need to snack, try ot have it be protein and portion controlled. These are just suggestions but I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and want you to do well on finals and stay healthy. Hope this helps! Rhonda

Renee, (((Hugs))) First of all I am struggling too and agree it is so frustrating. At our weight we need to be happy for we are. How much do you weigh? What size are you now? What did you start off with? See where I am going with this? We can not be gaining like you said. I know I eat no where near that amount of calories! Perhaps our bodies need to sit here for awhile and adjust and soon the weight will start coming off. I am trying to help you know You definately are not alone! Hugs, and feel free to vent! Chris

I'm so sorry you're having such a bad day. But I have one question? Where did you get the figures for calories/weight? It seems really off. For women you multiply the weight you want to maintain by 11 to get the calories needed (for men it's 12) so if your eating 1500 calories a day, you should be able to maintain or get down to 137lbs eventually. At the 1758 you said you are suppose to eat, that would get you to 160 or there abouts. As for me, I couldn't eat that much, just couldn't get it in. On a high day I'm eating 1200 and sometimes I still struggle to get in 1000. Again, sorry you're having a bad day. Hope you have a better weekend. Sending hugs, ] Ronna