Hi All~

Hey guys~ Just wanted to drop by and say hello to my fellow surgery buddies. Last time I posted I was in a very ugly place mentally and physically. I've gotten out of that funk...I think. I found that the sad reality of it was that my husband was very unsupportive of me. His words continued to break me down and had me believing that even in a size 4 I was still ugly, fat, and eating disordered. Once I left him things have changed. I'm a little upset in the fact that I went from my lowest weight of 162 up to my current weight of 182. I try to remind myself that at my lowest weight I was completely deprived of everything. Another thing that keeps me motivated is the knowledge that my loose skin is probably a good 10 pounds too! How is everyone doing? Miss you guys!! *muah* Dawn

Hey Dawn: Great to see you! I am so happy to hear that you are in a better place mentally! You did seem very down the last time you posted...I hope that cloud has permanently lifted! Don't be a stranger! Hugs, Jersey Mom

Good to see you sweet girl. I was so worried about you the last time you dropped by. Am so glad to see you doing better. I know how you feel about putting on some of the weight that you had lost. I've done that, too. It wasn't until I put some weight back on that peoply started telling me that I had looked sick when I was a 162. I do want to lose some of it again, but not all. Of course I would probably lose it if I left the m&m's and rieses pieces alone. I know what you mean about being so low and being deprived of everything. My ps thinks that I will lose twenty to twent-five pounds when and if I ever get the adominalplasy and reverse adominalplasty done. Anyway it is good to see you back and doing so much better. Hazel

DAWN, So glad to know things are looking up for you ...........Nice to see you post. HAVE A GREAT DAY TORI

How is everyone doing? Miss you guys!! Hey Dawn do you really care how all of us are doing or is this about you. Where is the support we should be recieving from you! You never come on here and support us, you show up for a day or two and then disappear and never really offer support to us. I am sorry if this seems so ROUGH but we are all having a difficult time in our own way. I do care about you and wonder how you were/are doing but it seems one sided. Hugs, Chris PS I am glad things are better for you.

I also need to add that there are several posts on the board that you completely ignored and only responded to one that I noticed. support is a give and take!

I responded to two actually...the roll call and Ronna not getting the job she wanted. You know I really think that YOUR negativity is what is unnecessary. I tried to come back today because I truly wanted to know how everybody was and let all of you know that I was starting to get better. Then true to form I was so quickly reminded why I stay away. I can't help the fact that I developed a chemical imbalance that caused me to suffer from "CLINICALLY DIAGNOSED" depression. I can't help that I was married to a man with such terrible trust issues that he mentally abused me to the point of attempting suicide. Would you ever knock someone that had cancer? NO! Then why flame me for having a DISEASE that was taking my life just as quickly? I have to fend for myself and children now. I work 56 hours a week and don't have as much time to get online as I did when I was a stay at home mother. And no...that was not a cry out for sympathy! I am damn proud of myself! I didn't say too much last time when some of you went off on me...I just went back into hiding...well not this time. I'm done being walked on and spat upon. Got something to say...BRING IT. They can kick me off this site for all I care. I'm an indepentant woman now with an opinion I don't fear verbalizing. I'm not going to try over and over to prove myself to you people. If you are that nieve to think that someone is incapable of change than I truly feel sorry for you and your unforgiving additude.

I hate to see this happening on this site again. We had so much of this back when we were all new at this WLS game. But it isn't a game. This is serious business. It is a road that all of us will be on the rest of our lives. We need the support of each other, we have come so far together. You know this surgery has made so many differences in our lives. Good changes and bad changes. We have all had to readjust way of thinking and seeing things. We need to support each other in whatever place they are at a given moment. The last year I have been gone from the board more than I have been here due to family crisis and you all have held me with open arms every time I have bopped back in for a day or two or a week or two before the next crisi**** I would hope that we can all do the same for Dawn. I know what clinical depression is, I have had it for years and sometimes times it is more than any half-way sane person can cope with and appear normal, sane and loving. I can't imagine haveing to face it for the first time right after WLS, with all it's up and downs. Be kind. Accept Dawn back with the love and support we as a group have always had for each other. Hazel

Thank you Hazel. I think part of the problem is there are so many people out there that don't understand what depression is. It's not like an intentional pity party. Ya know what....I posted a blog about depression on another site...I can't access it now because I'm at work and there are blockers up. But when I get home tonight I will post it on here. It explains on a philosophical standpoint what it is all about. Maybe that will provide some clarity...one can hope anyway. *hugs* Dawn

Hazel I have no problem welcoming Dawn back, the difference between you and her is that you return the support! You may come on here infrequently at times in the past year but you also support us back. Hugs, Chris