Hating WLS today!

Hiya ladies: Ok *****grets having surgery?? I don't but today I did! I seriously cried almost all day. It started Saturday when a friend from high school got in touch with me. She was the skinny friend who was always on some type of diet or always talking about not wanting to be fat! Well 4 children later, she is now bigger than me. When I seen her, her faced dropped! She had heard that I lost weight but was amazed at the way I looked. She said, "OMG, I never would of known who you were". I just smiled. Not once did she say that I looked good or any type of compliments. I felt so uncomfortable the entire time. Then Saturday night my sister n law said, "Your face is wayyy too skinny". Then Sunday morning in church, my brother ex girlfriend was there and she didn't know who I was. I spoke, told her who I was was and her comment was.. Girl, your not sick are you? After I said no, I just lost weight she said, oh ok, your skinny, I hope your not trying to loose anymore weight but you do look nice! My life has changed for the better in so many ways but there are a few things that I cant handle since surgery. The comments, the attention, the compliments. I Have lost a girlfriend and friends and everything just kinda came down on me today. Everyday I struggle with food. It's on my mind everyday. "Do the right thing" is what I say to myself all day! I never knew I was this much addicted to food til after this surgery! I had a Dr. appointment this morning and was afraid to eat breakfast because I didn't want to gain weight before I stepped on the scale! Crazy, i know but that's what I was feeling. I weighed in at 182 and she was pround of me for maintaining my weight. Instead of me being proud too, I was beating myself up for not making it to goal. After my dr. appointment I went to McDonalds to get a tea and the guy at the drive-thru was flirting. I seriously almost lost it! Why? I don't know. I didn't wanna hear that I had a pretty smile at that moment. I was thinking " Yeah, I got a pretty smile but my face is wayy too skinny". Still couldn't let go of what my stuck up ass sister n law said. People left me the heck alone when i was 450. I didn't have to struggle with food I just ate it. I talked to my Dr. and she sent in a referrel for a psyc. that specializes in eating disorders. Never thought I'd need a shrink but looks like I do. Sorry for letting this out on you guys but I had to let it out!!! Thanks for being here! Kay

Kay, You are just perfect the way you are right now. And you will be just perfect the way you will be in the morning. The opinions of others and the comments they make ARE NOT about you, but a reflection of how they feel about themselves. I read your posts and think you are a happy woman with a great deal of love in your heart and life. I "read" you as a blessed woman. I started counceling as soon as I made up my mind to have the surgery. I still see her once a month. It has helped me greatly and I would recomend therapy to anyone. We get our car and furnace tuned up, why not our noggin'? If you have the time, read 'The Four Agreements". This book helped me. Teresa

Thanks so much, Teresa!

Kay first you are not too skinny. You are at a much more healthy weight and you look wonderful. Don't let those nutcases get to you. And yes, maybe seeing a therapist will help. You have gone through a tremendous change that most people just can't understand. You have ended a long term relationship, moved to another state and started a new job besides all the weight loss. That's a lot for less than 2 years. You know we are here for you but please, look into getting a therapist. You probably can get some great referrals from the hospital. You know that anytime you want to talk, I'm here. Sending hugs, Ronna

Thanks, Ronna!

Sweetie there are always going to be people that kick you in the teeth. Don't listen to them. You are fabulous. Today, tomorrow, forever. They are the ones with the problem. As far as the psyc. we can all use one of those once in awhile. Hazel

Thanks for taking the time out to comment.

Awe K, I wish I was there to give you a big hug ........... Sorry you are so down , people don't realize what they say can be hurtful, you ar beautiful and healthy and look how far you have come !!!! HAVE A BETTER EVENING TORI

Thanks for your support, Tori!

Don't regret the wonderful gift we've given ourselves, hon. We have done this for us and need to keep that in our minds and hearts. I think we're alot alike right now... I too, have lost a boyfriend and friends. I'm getting the too skinny comments and you don't need to lose anymore- although I'm 25 pounds away from goal still! Anytime I eat something I "shouldn't" I think poorly of myself and how its not getting me closer to goal. When I eat "good" food, I only want to add something "bad" There is lots of attention we have to deal with now- same sex, opposite sex, dating, people who only want "intimate encounters", family comments, friend comments, etc. I wish I could see a shrink now too, come to think of it lol. We'll both get through this, gorgeous! Let's go!