If things ain't workin', change them.

Last night I posted about the new crisis' in my life and I have had to look at a lot of things today. I got some new information on some important things and after a lot of anger and tears and yellin and screamin, I have decided to do some things different. I am giving up the POA's for my daughter and my ex-husband. No one likes the way I am doing things so now they can do them. If I had had a gun this afternoon, I would have put it to my head and pulled the trigger. Now ain't that stupid, to let things get that far down the anger, frustration, and what-ever road. It is time to do what is right for me. Hazel

Hazel my dear, I hope you were figurtively speaking. I would be devasted if you did something like that. Please peomise me that is not an option. You need to take care of YOU first.Good luck in clearing things up! Hugs to you.... Chris

Even while it was taking every bit of fortitude I had to not do something stupid, I knew it was not an option. Like I said, I am backing off from some of the responsiblity and stop enableing them to sit back and do nothing. I know they have been through some _hit, but so have I and it is time for them to do for themselves. Thanks for careing. Hazel

You should never ever think of ending your life, hey worst case if you can't deal anymore get in the car and drive.... Tori

Thank-you for careing. The trouble with getting into the car and driving is I'm not sure that I would stop until I was so far away that I would never come back. Hazel

My pointe exactly !!

Sounds like the change is a good one. Don't ever let yourself get that frustrated. Better to walk or get away for a while from the situation. HOpe it gets better for you soon. Karla

I know that it is past time to do something to make a difference in my life. I had this surgery to have a life instead of being a myrter (sp). You know sometimes you have to hit the bottom so you can push yourself off the bottom and come back up. Hazel

Hazel.. Take care of YOURSELF before anyone else. You are right it is time to put yourself first. They will either take care of themselves or not..it's up to them. I hope that if you ever feel that low again you have someone you can call... If you don't..let me know I'll give you my number!!! Nothing is worth killing yourself over. Hugs and lots of love, Anna

Thank-you for careing. I realize that I let myself get put in this position and it is up to me to get out of it. I am trying to start doing that. I am not the only adult in the bunch and God didn't put me on this earth to be everyones keeper. Needless to say everyone here is keeping their distance from me tonight. I have set some things straight with all of them. Even the kids. Hazel