So sorry it's been tooooo long.....

I just happened to decide to pop on today, and started reading some posts, then suddenly felt really guilty that I havent been on in a very long time. I have ocassionally stopped by to read and find myself with nothing to say. I realized that has been very rude of me, after all i got a ton of support from you all whenever I needed it and I haven't been bothered to return the favor. So I will give a quick update, and then promise to try and be more active on here again. I can't guarantee I will read and respond to every post every day, but I will try harder to be present more often. So for those of you that DON'T have myspace...... a whole lot has happened in the past 4 months. As for WLS, I am about 3-5 pounds from goal depending on the day, lol, I weigh 138-139 most days, making a total weight loss for me 177 pounds. I am VERY pleased with my progress and will be thrilled if I can maintain even if I never reach my goal. As for my personal life, I posted last around April about quitting my job and going to school full time. I quit my job in May and have had the pleasure of staying home with Hanna all summer. I start classes next week and I am taking 7 courses. Around the same time I quit my job, I told my husband I wanted a divorce. I have been struggling to find happiness in this marriage for years now, and I thought having a baby would give it to me. I finally accepted the reality that I just didn't love him and I certainly didn't feel loved. It was the hardest decision I ever had to make, and am now thanking God for giving me the strength to do so, as soon after I got an email from the love of my life, a boy I dated in high school for 3 years. He asked me out to lunch and we have been inseperable since. Now I am aware that to some this may be socially unacceptable, but I have not been in love with my husband for years, and I have never stopped loving Chris. He came at the right moment in my life and we are never letting each other go again. He is living with me and Hanna, supporting us both so I can go to school. We plan to get married and have kids(after the divorce is final of course) and I am so very excited about what my future holds. I have NEVER been this in love in my life, and although I don't regret my relationship with my husband(I wouldn't have Hanna if it weren't for him) if I had realized this was what love was really like, I never would have married him. Anyhow, I feel like I am carrying on too long, so if you want to knnow more, the story is on myspace along with tons of pictures. myspace.com/karynrenee (copy and paste this link) and here are some pics as well. Please accept my apologies, I promise to be a better OH friend! Love you guys. my sisters, myself and dad http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y2/karynbudde/102_1012.jpg me and Chris at his sisters wedding, I caught the bouquet! http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y2/karynbudde/102_1120.jpg me and Chris at my cousins wedding http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y2/karynbudde/102_1064.jpg me and Chris again, lol http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y2/karynbudde/100_0662.jpg this was us in high school http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y2/karynbudde/scan0001.jpg

Boy Karyn I love the geeky high school picture....too funny but very brave. I willhave to dig out a picture of me and John from high school. I look worse if that is possible. I am very happy you found love. Hugs, Chris (the other Chris in your life)

The HS pic is a trip Well sweetiepie, looks like you are on your way to a wonderful new life. All the best I wish to you, Hannah and your new beau. Don't forget about us! Sending hugs, Ronna

Hugs Karyn Thanks for checking in, you've been missed. Glad to hear you found happiness in your life & your focusing on you & Hanna. May your future hold many more happy moments. Stop back when you can. Carly

what a tender story, I wish you happiness, passion and long term companionship. Be well,. Tiffany

You look great and you look HAPPY! I'm so happy for you. Miss ya, Anna