Finally Some Peace

In the last 24 hours I have felt feelings of gloom, excitement, joy, depression, etc etc. My surgery was first set for Thursday @ 1pm. Yesterday at 5pm, the surgery consultant called me and stated my surgery had to be rescheduled for the following Wednesday... but since I was being bumped, I could be first. I kindly told her I couldn't accept that due to my disability starting the 20th and my parents taking time off of work. My dad is the Safety Inspector for Foster Farms- he teaches classes and is quite important ya know he he. I got off the phone very sad and kinda pushed everything positive outta my head. I ate 2 brownies even! :-0 Today was still my Pre-Op appointment... within the hour I was in the consult room, my surgery was moved from Wednesday to Monday, back to Wednesday and the finally settled back on this Thursday the 21st. The "confusion" was all to balance out the week's schedule so the doctor wouldn't have to have a longer day on thursday rather than next week. Oh Geeze.... ugh. I don't know why they couldn't have reviewed the schedules prior to calling me and putting me through the emotional turmoil ya know? When the doc, Dr. John Burnett, came in after the date finalization he explained the procedure. I'm having just the skin removed from my stomach- pannus, top part of the "girlie area" and the skin below my breasts. It is an anchor cut that he'll use to take it all off... think of a huge triangle with a rounded bottom and pull it allll together with a brand new belly button! I'm calmer now... but still excited. I still cry... but I've cried because I've finally realized I'll look normal. I know that's kinda odd... but I don't feel like a normal person right now. I'm dealing with pain, rashes, a slight odor from the rashes and finally I'll be free from it! I can't wait! Thanks for all the words of wisdom and hope... I really appreciate it! Now I just have to get through one more day Tommy will be with me through Tuesday. Saturday is our 11 month anniversary I can't believe its almost a year already!!!!!! See you guys later! Jaci PS I'll post photos too, so don't worry!

Jaci, I am so excited for you. All your emotions are normal and I am sending hugs your way! We will all be thinking of you... Hugs, Chris

I'm so excited for you Jaci. Keep us updated and I'd love to see pictures.

Jac!!!!!! I'm so excited for you girl!

Hey Chickie! I am so, so happy for you! And you must know that your feeling are perfectly normal! I can't wait to see the new you! Please DO post pics...I want to see what I will be in for down the line! All my love, Jersey

I am glad that everything is settled and you are ready to go onto the next stage of your journey. I'm glad we finally got a chance to meet and that we had a good talk about WLS and life. Kelli

Ms. Slim & Trim! I'm so happy for you! I think what your feeling is sooo normal. But your time is coming soon, girl. Embrace it! April

Hang in there Jaci it's almost Thursday! You will do just fine. Just keep that "end in mind". How great it will be to try on clothes and how nice they will look with all that extra skin gone forever! I'll be thinking of you and I'm sending soothing vibes out west right now Also sending you hugs, Ronna