I don't like what I see anymore!

This is such a negative post but I have an issue... After loosing over 200 lbs., I loved to look in the mirror. In my eyes, I was skinny at 188 lbs. I was ****y and I knew I looked good. Now I have become use to being this size and see a fat girl again. I hate to look in the mirror anymore. All I see is someone overweight with a big fat face. I am totally convinced that I am gaining weight without the lbs. moving! I know that sounds crazy! My belly feels bloated and swollen. I asked my mom if I look bigger and she said, No. I thought maybe my hernias were growing but my dr. said they are still very small. She said all of my stomach is just excess skin. I don't know if my mind is playing tricks on me but I swear it's bigger than it use to be. Now i feel like a big fat failure because I have not made my goal of 175 lbs. Why do I feel fat again?? Thanks for letting me vent... Kay

Kay I think you just described how I feel too. This surgery is amazing yet it does not seem to allow us to see reality. I guess it is from all thse years f being fat.....Be proud of who you are. You are not far from goal and perhaps once you get the plastics yu will be below goal... Hugs and thanks for psting this it makes me feel not alone! Chris

I know I look a lot better, but lately have been feeling the same...my front seems enormous at times. We're not, we're just used to it. Karla

Are you reading my mind?? Kay honey I am having serious food and drink issues. I know I went so long without it that now I have to force myself. And my mind body issues sure don't help the matter. I am praying for you. Please pray for me. Together with support we can get through this! Nobody said it was easy. But we are going to overcome these problems with great success. YOU are beautiful!! Hugs, Julie

Girl, I think many of us feel like that. So many people tell me I'm skinny, but I still feel fat, fat, fat! We'll always feel like big girls, but the reality is that we're no where near as big as we perceive ourselves to be. The other thing is that, don't worry about not being at your goal. If you decide to have surgery to get rid of your excess skin you'll probably surpass your goal. Instead of us paying so much attention to the way we look now (we all look damn good!), we need to think back to the way we USED to look and feel. That'll change our minds really fast! April

Kay! I know **EXACTLY** what you are talking about! I mean...totally, 100% know what you are talking about! I, too, felt thin and great a couple of months ago! And now I feel HUGE and blobby and fat. And I also understand your concern about making goal! I was FOUR lbs from goal and did not get there. I thought I was the ultimate failure! At one point, I had gotten up to being 12 lbs from goal! Now I am back to being 7 lbs from goal but, still, I am so disappointed in myself! I wish I could give you the answer as to why we feel fat again but I can't. Maybe it is just another part of the journey. Maybe it is life's way of telling us that we worked on our bodies...now we need to work on our brains! PLEASE know that, although I know how you feel, I am sure what you are seeing is not reality. You have not gained weight so you have nothing to worry about! You have done an amazing job, Chickie! Be proud! Love ya!

Kay, I too feel this same way. I hate how I look, I am not at goal and I feel fat! I know I should be happy for my better health and for the weight I have lost, but I just don't feel it's enough most of the time. Hang in there, we are right there with ya! Leeanne

If there is any comfort at all, in knowing you are not alone... Girl... you are not alone... It did surprise me how many of my OH sisters see the same distortions... but I guess we all came from the same place, mentally, and so why should I think I was alone in thinking this way? Keep the faith, and keep reminding yourself how far you've come Maybe tape a Before photo to the mirror that you look into the most... A constant reminder that you have come a long ways, and you do look and feel 110% better than you did "before" Hugs, Kay... You are not alone.

Kay I think many of us are in the same state of mind. I too only see "Fat Ronna" when I look in the mirror when I am now 7 pounds under my doctors goal and only 9 pounds away from my own personal goal. My friends flitter around telling me how thin and great I look, but I just don't see it I hate my turkey neck and I hate my bat-wings and my droopy boobs - I know TMI. I wish I had the bucks for PS but I don't think that would end the problem of this body dismorphia that we are experiencing. I think only time will help in this area. I hope it does help a little to know that you are not alone in feeling this way. Sending hugs, Ronna

Hugs Kay we all have these days. I think you look wonderful and have done a great job. Keep up the good work.