I HAVE BEEN GONE A LONG TIME :-(

Hello everyone: I hope you all remember me. I have had a very very bad year since surgery. Well, I had the surgery, that has gone as well as can be expected. No way have I done as well as all of you. My surgery weight was 304 and my current weight fluctuates between 209 and 219, never higher and never lower. I don't know if you guys remember, but I got hit by the drunk driver and had the knee injury. Well, I have had 2 arthroscopic surgeries and now I need a complete knee replacement. I cannot do anything that causes stress on the knee, it is bone on bone on bone. When I went for my 1 year checkup the Dr. said Iam 20 to 30 pounds away from goal. He said that exercising will take of this extra in no time. I have been very depressed and in pain all the time. I m very happy with my weight loss and feel very very good physically. I do have to go for a heart test next week because the Dr. heard something during my physical. So that will be next week. Hear is the kicker. My sixteen yr old daughter is pregnant! This recent news has totally put me into a state of darkness that I cannot describe. It is just her and I and the past two weeks have been Holy Hell. She is going into a absolutely beautiful Christian Maternity Home where she will get 7 months of nurturing and education. She will be given all of her options. Everything is FREE. God has provided this home. Yesterday she was going to abort but saw online pics of aborted babies and decided it was not the way to go. THANK GOD that it did not happen. I found out two or three weeks ago and now am adjusting to the fact. Tomorrow we will be going back to the home for her 1 hr long interview then we wait for the acceptance call. I will cry so hard and long when she is gone, but I know that this is the way to go. Whatever she chooses Iam behind her. It is just that my family are dead set on adoption and I don't know exactly what she will choose. I know that she will make the best choice for her and her child. Well all. Sorry I have been away. Please pray for us. You all have been doing great I wish I have done as well as all of you. Iam doing my home health care work three days a week. Once my daughter gets settled in it will be my time to hopefully get back to my life and take care of me. It has been a rough last 12 or 13 years with my Ashley I love her so but she has had so many problems and it is just her and I. Sorry for rambling. Maybe Iam reaching out everywhere trying to hang on. The name of the home she is going into is Hannahs home. It is here in Ohio and is absolutely beautiful. I am hoping that his place is where God is leading us for the life of this unborn child. Sorry for being away. God Bless all Denise PS- I do have a pending lawsuit against the guy who hit me. So maybe there is a little rainbow at the end of this tunnel. And my son who is 27 is opening his own business this weekend. He is a caterer.

Hi Denise Welcome back to your home away from home.......Sorry to hear that you are going through a rough year. I wish you the best with your lawsuit. Take it easy and take a minute out of your busy scheduled and pamper yourself you deserve it. Sending hugs and good wishes your way. Suzan

I am so sorry things have been so bad for you, but it looks like there is a rainbow everywhere you look. I have some suggestions on exercise. You don't have to use your legs to increase cardio. If you look around, I am sure there are free videos on the internet on this, but you can sit in a chair and with simple weights, like 1 gallon milk bottles filled with water, you can exercise and get your heart rate up. Maybe this is what you need. Also, try drinking green tea. It will help with everything. It fights the hormones that are released from stress that keep us from loosing, or make us gain weight. It is also soothing, and taking the time for the cups thru out the day will give you a much needed 'you' time and a time out. After you get your daughter situated, it is time to turn to you. Find that happy place, maybe paint a rainbow on a wall away from everything, a place you can sit and just have your time, even the bathroom. And remember, it helps to talk and we are always here. Welcome back and please keep in touch.

Good to hear from you Denise. Sounds like you are having a rough time. I hope everything settles down and gets better for you. Congratulations on your weight loss. You've done really well. Karla 337/177/165

Denise, welcome back and I too am sorry you are going through a rough time. Feel free to come here and vent and use us for support when needed. I hope you find your rainbow soon. Hugs Chris

HI Denise, That sure is a lot of cross for you to carry right now. God will guide and protect you. I am glad that your daughter did not have and abortion. I am very pro-life and support the bill that James Dobson has spoken on requiring all abortions to be preceeded by an ultrasoud. At five weeks preggo, my baby's heart was beating away. Her soul ~ there is was in front of me on the screen. Now at 25 weeks, she is just a true little blessing growing in my body. All that being said, I hope your daughter considers placing that baby for adoption in a loving christian home. I am also a foster mother, one of my FD's mother was 16 when she had her. She is now 17 about to turn 18, ironically, her name is Ashley too. She is in no way capable or prepared to raise a child to maturity. God bless your heart progress and knee replacement. Jen