I'm here!!

I'm finally home. I just got home tonight. I am still quite sick to be honest. I don't know how I talked my doctor into this one!! Am I stupid or what??? NO, I'm going to stand in faith that this weekend God is going to heal me and I am going to have an overflow of miracles happen to me. Today was the first day I had food - in I can't even begin to tell you how long it's been! I had about 4 oz of water today. I threw up tonight. I have to get in at least 30 oz a day to keep from getting dehydrated!! Now these measurements seem impossible to me, but to God there is no measurement.!! Stand in faith with me. The doctor will be calling Monday for a report. I have to keep a food/drink diary this weekend. I still have in my PICC. Monday if I can't keep in what I need to then it's back to the hospital and back on those stupid TPN's!!! I have to be honest here, I feel like I'm such a failure. I just can't get my life under control. This is some serious issues I have!! Could this be food issues?? Am I having too much self doubt?? I don't know how to get myself up to where I need to be. The numbers seem so high to me... so I've given up to God. I have to stay strong in my faith. I believe and I ask upon Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior to heal me!!! Please stand in faith with me! Continue your prayers for me. Thank you all for your phone calls. I got so discouraged this past time in the hospital. I know alot of it was my fever. But it's easy to slip into doubt, discouragement, depression. I love you all and missed you!! Hugs, Julie

Julie, your strength and determination is to be admired for sure, you are NOT a failure! I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers, you are such a fighter and with God you will get through this! One day at a time sweetie, and never doubt yourself, you are such an inspiration to us for all that you have gone through and keep on fighting! Love you girl, keep that chin up, it will get better for you! Karyn

Welcome home Julie..even if it's only for the weekend. You and your family have had to go through so much!! I cannot even begin to imagine the challenges you've had to face and come through.. You are in no way a failure!! I can understand how discouraging this might be..but you will get through all of it and come out the other side.. Keep your faith. We will all be praying for you and your family. You are an inspiration to us all. Hugs, Anna

I always jump to read post you put up or someone does for you. What an ordeal you are going thru. I only seem to know part of it, that you are battling infections and there is something else, er go the pict line (sp). I hope they figure out what it is. Have you tried Wendy's chili? It is the ONLY food I know will sit in my tummy and I can eat a good amount of. I know you need to get more food in, just thought you could try it and that would work. Not sure what foods you are allowed though. Also, try the Dannon lite and fit carb control yogarts, they are good. Maybe you can get those down. If you can have sugars, maybe one of the parfey (sp) yogarts, that are a desert type thing, might work. I want to see you succede on staying home. If these ideas have already been thrown at you, I am sorry, I am just such a mom and worried about you.

Thank you so much for your ideas! I am willing to try anything!! Hugs, Julie

Welcome back Julie, so sorry your having to go through all these. Stay strong and rest up.

JULIE! I dont' get on over the weekend, so sorry this is delayed. I am so glad to here something from you. I hope your weekend went well. You are NOT a failure, you are so storng. You are and will be in my prayers. I can't imagine what you are going through! Just know that we all love you. Leeanne

Hi Julie, I am so sorry that you have had to go through so much for so long. I think of you all of the time and whenever I see a post from you, I always jump to read up on how your are doing. Gosh, you are definitely not a failure, in fact it is encouraging to hear that you are enduring this physical and mental trial while raising a family. Just know that everyone's thinking of you and hoping you will be feeling better soon. Hugs, Karen S.